Sandra L.

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I meet the surgeon on Nov. 17th Dr. Starr was so nice and understanding.  He got that I wasn't ready for the surgery many years ago and that trying to lose weight on my own for 3 years.   Next set of appointments isn't till Feb. 2015 seems like so far away.  I feel like I'm wishing my life away waiting.  The good thing is that stress in my life has been so high lately that having surgery now wouldn't really be a good thing.  My car got taken out by the world's largest porcupine took 3 weeks to fix and cost insurance $5000 I paid my $500 deductible.  We moved to a wonderful new home, but my son broke hand during the move.  So lots of appointment for the next 6-8 weeks for him.  Then my daughters car crapped out one new radiator and another $400 gone.  Still trying to get snow tires on my car they have been in the back seat of my car since the porcupine hit but every one is booked.  Now there is something else wrong with my daughters car.  And I'm pretty sure that I have Gallstones again.   Seems to be never ending.  But the best part of all this was the realization that my new home will allow me to have the biggest Christmas Tree I have ever had.  I am so excited.  Won't be any gifts but the thought of the tree is just awesome.  Hoping some of the stress goes away soon.

I am so very excited to meet Dr. Starr on Monday Nov. 17.  Its one more step in the process.  I cannot wait to move forward, but am very nervous about the actually surgery because of my intubation issue.

I've given up 23 years of my life for my children.  I want to start living again and getting in better health.  But.... they just keep taking.  I now don't even have enough money to buy food to feed us all.  How in the hell am I ever going to afford to buy all the protein and protein shakes I'm supposed to have on this program.  All the co-morbs are adding up and I really don't want to die this young.  I don't sleep at night worrying about how I'm supposed to pay for this that and the other thing.  And my husband has no idea what is going on half the time.   I cannot get a job that pays more cause I'm obese.  Even though I can do a better job than most.  Life just really sucks.  I have a hard time doing the things I love right now because of a medication I'm on for a problem cause by my weight.  In fact I really want to stop taking the medication.

Well,  I'm excited for Monday as I get my Orientation at HHRR in the morning, but this process is taking so long.  Regret that I didn't go a head with this in 2010.  I'm so tired of peoples attitudes towards obese people.  I am not playing soccer with one of the teams anymore cause they won't let me play, I either sit off most of the game cause they won't sub or they stand beside me.  Thank goodness for the other team I play on they are wonderful people.  I told that what was happending with the other team and they said they had the problem.  Then last Sunday I got voted as MVP for the game.  I just love playing with these ladies and will miss them when the season is over.  I have been out looking for a job and get judged because of the way I look.  I need things to get better.  I was going to join a gym to start working out but cannot afford it until I get another job.   I hate walking with a passion unless there is some purpose to it.  Any suggestions, I would bike but my son broke my bike a few years ago and still hasn't replaced it.  Swimming at the community center is only available during the mid day when I'm out job hunting or soon to be working.  I'm also going to tighten up my eating habits cause being home everything is off schedule.

Well today I went and say a specialist about a problem I was having.  Turns out this too is related to my weight.  It just adds one more pro to the list of reasons to have Bariatric Surgery.   Starting to have other issues now cause I've gained more weight which is what happens every time I lose a significant amount of weight.  I had lost 25 lbs seems I've now gained back 34.  Very frustrating.

I am wondering how long it will take before I am allowed to return to some of the activities I love.  I currently play volleyball and soccer, I was going to a gym but have stopped for the summer due to lack of time but will be returning.  How long to you have to wait as a general rule of thumb?

Well today I got my first appointment date.  First meeting is set for Aug. 24th, 2014.  I cannot wait to get this rolling.  I now have regrets that I didn't do this three years ago when I started the process but very little long term data was available at the time..  I have missed out on so many things I want to do, but I keep going with the things I love.  I am getting very frustrated with people's attitudes towards obese people.  Yes I do have feelings and yes I notice when you treat me different.  I can do almost anything I put my mind to.  I am 49 years of age and obese.  I love dancing, I play soccer on two different teams twice a week and play volleyball in the winter months.  I am smart and have valuable opinions and can contribute meaningful words to conversations.  I am making changes to my life for me and only me not because of you.