MarcosMom
Free time...
Oct 17, 2010
So today was a bit of free time. The hubby went to have some lunch with friends (some well-deserved time off babysitting me)..and I am not as good of a person as he is. I had a hard time watching him go. I knew I couldn't, the traffic/driving, my stomach still being so sensitive to motion.. But I felt left out. I did everything in my power to explain how I felt and that I don't hold it against him, and that I (in fact) WANT him to go and have a good time. I am not sure if he actually believed me or understood where I was coming from.In the future, when I can travel easier, I'll go and just order soup or something..I can sip tea, whatever..we'll figure it out, I can be a part and just not eat the same menu.
So that being said, I had a bit of free time. I moped for a few minutes, then decided to take a walk. That was nice, not too long, I wasn't feeling spectacular. Came back home and watched tv, surfed the web a bit, played a bit of WoW, and tried to eat some food. Lately I'm doing well with pudding, popsicles, half juice/water and scoop of protein powder and broth. I definitely had more today than I did the last couple days. I"m noticing that things like pudding I can have a bite, then another rather quickly withouting feeling discomfort, but water is different, I really have to sip and wait, then sip and wait.
The free time is what I'm trying to get to: So usually my day would be similar (with school or volunteering plans, and maybe take the dog out once or twice), but for now I'm focusing on getting better.. so where I typically would spend an hour or two making decisions about my own lunch, where I'd go, who I'd go with...now I'm just walking to the kitchen and grab my pudding, eat half and I'm like BLEH can't eat anymore. I need to do something with the time so my BRAIN doesn't get hungry. I feel like a serious couch potato right now, so I asked my hubby to bust out my crafting box. Mostly beading stuff, and I'm looking forward to seeing what I can come up with tomorrow with my free time. It's just another activity to add to watching tv because tv is rotting my brain. Maybe I'll invest in a few books on tape or something. I really hate to read.. as lazy as it sounds I hate having to flip the page. Whatever..honesty is what you'll get. I think at this point, I've read enough textbooks in school (just graduated with a B.S. in Biochemistry) so I'm allowed to dislike reading for a few years...decades..
So another thing I'm bringing up. I have a facebook, where all my friends, family and acquaintences happen to be. I want to mention little things like "yay I drank more today" or "yay, apple juice didn't make me nausous" buuuuut I really dont want to be the chick harping on the one thing going on in her life. I know myself I would get irritated if I had to hear about someone's every single thing going on. It makes me a little sad, but I guess that's why I'm glad I have this blog. We'll see if I keep it up, I'm shitty at communicating via any method unless I see you on a daily/weekly basis.
Feels good though that support seems to be everywhere here, I like reading the postings and giving encouraging words if I can. Sometimes I dont know what to say, but I know even I appreciate the "keep up the good work" or "way to go" regardless of how small the thoughts , they're huge in feeling. Well...that was today for me.
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Long Beach, CA
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30.1
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10/12/2010
Surgery Date
Jul 14, 2010
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