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A week out today,  and,  I've lost hospital fluid gain.  It didn't upset me cause I knew to expect it. My mom told me she could already tell my face and waist are smaller! My fluids and protein goals are getting met, and I'm so on fire! ????????https://media.tenor.co/images/a4183360d4e55ecc423ecffb418e8261/tenor.gif

The day has arrived! Prayers please for best result. 

Surgery date for VSG is October13th, and I am so excited to begin my new life! Got my skinny pictures all around at work of when I was my happiest so I can keep motivated. Got out all my skinny clothes that I can't wait to wear again! Just to feel excited to get dressed again in cute clothes is something I am ready for.  I have been listening to motivational podcasts from weightloss coaches, reading all the wls posts I can trying to ready my mind and soul. It is an internal change I can feel in my entire being! I have decided to go back to school to get my psychology degree so I can help others and have a career instead of a job barely making anything. I also have been organizing my clutter, something I have avoided because my mind and life have been so disorganized and haven't cared or felt like I have had much to look forward to until now. On well...enough rambling! Lol 

Well, insurance gave me the chance to appeal only to deny again, so....I'm going to Tijuana in October for VSG. I'm going with a surgeon a coworker used. I'm so excited, although I'm nervous too. The flying part scares me...the surgery is what I'm ready for. 

I got my denial from my group insurance plan today, and am struggling to find a light at the end of the tunnel. It's like every time I get my hopes up that something will finally help me, the rug gets yanked out from under me and I'm back at miserable in my body!

I have been reading, listening to podcasts, taking in all the information I can on how to do something to help myself while I wait for an approval or denial from my insurance. I'm hoping that no news is a good sign?? I mean, how long does it take to say"No?" I cut my yard today with a pushmower for some exercise. I thought I was about to die! I have been juicing and went back to a protein shake for one meal a day. I'm going to start the pouch reset once I use all my fresh produce up I had already bought. I am trying my best to strengthen myself emotionally and mentally by writing helpful quotes and advice on colorful notecards to put on fridge and at my work desk. The one piece of advise I have heard the past week, is that this battle with food is one bite, one chew at a time. So, I'm going to do it that way by not thinking too much ahead to the hardness of it, but take it one meal at a time. That's all for now. Will update soon.