Can't Wait For My Fill!!

Sep 19, 2009

I think I was up to 164 at some point last week.  I was back down to 160 this morning.  Not too bad, considering that I have been bad bad bad.  I did the pouch test for only about two days. Hunger took over.  Without any restriction I need solid protein to get my through, no liquids.  

I am think the E/R surgeon took out way more than 1 CC.  When he put the needle in, he didn't have the syringe attached to it yet, so some saline came shooting out.  He estimated that it was just a few drops.  When you are talking about small amounts, a few drops could be a few CC's.  I know that Dr. Acosta will check and see how much total I have now.  UGH.  I really hope he puts me very close to where I was before.  I need my band to help me out!! 

Life has been very busy with working two jobs.  I hate it.  I am hoping that I won't have to do this much longer.  I still haven't heard officially about my car.  The adjuster said yesterday that he is not totaling it, but it's right on the cusp, so his supervisor would make the final decision.  UGH!!!  I am hoping that it does get totaled at this point.....seriously.  I need to get out of that payment!  I don't want to continue to work two jobs.  

I traveled down to the Black Ranger District to speak to the Forest Service employees of the Gila National Forest yesterday.  I work for the Forest Service and was representing my area.  It was a lot of fun, but I certainly realized that I am so damn shy in front of crowds that it hurts!  ha ha!  I am good one on one with meeting new people, but speaking in front of a crowd is so hard for me.  Luckily, the co-worker that went with me is very good with crowds.  He handled it very well!  I think if I hadn't lost this weight, I would have been so much more embarassed to walk up to that podium.  I know that I would have been.  I would have been thinking to myself, "All of these people are thinking about how disgustingly fat I am..."  True or not, that's what I would have been thinking.

Off from both jobs today and tomorrow, so I am off to have fun!

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