A Valentine For Me!!

Jan 23, 2010

I met with Dr. Acosta last night.  He is as gorgeous as ever, by the way.  LMAO!  Okay.....I brought in my picture of me that was taken the night before my surgery. Since he didn't do my original surgery, he has no idea how fat and miserable I looked.  I wanted to show him that and make sure he understands that I never want to be "her" again.  Ever.

I was in the exam room, waiting, and I pulled out the picture.  I just started crying....I never want to go back, I only want to go forwards but I need help.  Will I get the help?  Will I have a tool to help me fight obesitiy and food addictions?  Will I have to do it alone?  I was scared, sad and anxious.  My tears had stopped flowing, but my cheeks were still wet, when Dr. Acosta walked in.

He shook my hand and asked me how I was.  I told him I was scared.  We talked about my band he drew me a picture of what a good band placement looks like, and what he saw on my UGI pics.  His picture of a healthy band was similar to the one I have on my OH page of mine....so it's so confusing to me.  I do know I have the symptoms, and I know that I trust Dr. Acosta, so I believe him over my untrained eyes!!  LOL 

He said that he would go in and reposition the band if he felt he could, if not, he would replace my band with a new one.  He would try to leave my port in place if it looks okay, if not, he will replace that also.  I asked him about RNY and he felt like it was not a good option for me.  He explained that the band causes scar tissue on the stomach, making it harder to shape the stomach for RNY.  He said that the percentage of leaks goes up in those revisions.  He would have to do surgery to take the band out.  Close me up and let me heal for three months, then we could do the RNY surgery, but that more than likely my insurance would not approve it since I have lost so much weight.  I kind of figured.

So, I said well, as long as I get to keep my band or get a new band I will be the happiest girl in the world.  He said that it would be a rare exception that he would not be able to do one or the other.  If he goes in and sees some erosion or infection, then he would have to take out my band and send me home.  Sooooooo I am hopeful!!  He took out only HALF of my fill, which was surprising to me.  Although, the part of me that is addicted to having restriction of some sort was very happy about that.  ha ha ha I am a sick woman, I know!

He also said to eat a normal diet from now until surgery.  My surgery is scheduled for February 16th, I have to report down to El Paso for pre-op stuff on the 15th, which is  Sunday, so that's good.  I am excited about having a good surgeon take care of me!!  This time I will not take my band for granted.  I will do what I can to make it work with a medium restriction.  I only have 30 pounds to lose now.....I will probably lose quite a bit of that just being on liquids after my surgery! ha ha I hope so anyway,  

So, all in all, it was good news.  I have a plan, which makes me feel a whole lot better!! 

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