Valentine's Day

Feb 14, 2010

Wow. two years ago, today I had my very first PB!  ha ha ha   I know it's so odd that I remember it, but since it was on a holiday, I remember it well.  I had just been released to eat real foods after my surgery.  We were having a pot luck at work and I filled my plate with a little bit of everything.  I hadn't had a fill yet, so I figured that I wouldn't have to really change my eating habits as far as chewing, etc.  I didn't pay close attention and I was eating a bit of chicken enchilada and a piece of fried chicken....and WHOA!!   I felt this very strange sensation in my stoma.  I ran to the bathroom and bent over the toilet and it pretty much easily just came back up out of my esophagus.    Gross, I know....but when it was over I was so excited!!!  I knew that I had some restriction even without a fill!    ha ha!!  

Okay.....back to today, two years later.   I did horrible with my eating all week.  I got up to 178 for a few days, but was back down to 176 this morning.  That's still a significant gain from last week.  UGH!!   I am hating myself right now.  I feel so out of control with my eating.  I know that I am probably PMSing right now...combine that with stress and the last supper syndrome and I have an explosive situation.  

Please pray for me.  Pray that I gain my sanity back.  I can't regain this much before surgery.  *sigh*

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