Almost Time To Fill 'Er Up!!

Apr 24, 2010

My bad eating continued most of the week.  UGH.  I am stressing on finding a place to live.  I was eating everything....from cheeseburgers and fries to pizza.  Yesterday was the most stressful day I had in the week, I was proud of myself....I stayed away from carbs.  I managed to just say no.  I know that it can be done, but I am way too quick to "cut myself some slack" when I am going though something in order to comfort myself.  It might comfort me for 5 minutes, but then the guilt and self-hate sets in, making it all worse. I then have stress PLUS the bad feelings towards myself and the extra weight.

I have had to go out and purchase a couple of pairs of pants....I only have 2 size 12's and none of my 10's fit anymore.    I am mad at myself for letting it get out of control.  I know that Dr. Acosta will be a bit disappointed in my weight gain since seeing him last, but hopefully he will understand and fill my band up.  Lord knows I need it!!!  I can't wait to go on Monday!!

I forgot to weigh this morning before eating breakfast, so I will go by yesterday's embarassing weigh in of 186!  UGH!!  Not good!!!  Staying low carb until my fill, then being on liquids for a couple of days should help me get back on track.  I will update after my fill.  

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