I Am Such A Loser, And Not In A Good Way!!

Jul 06, 2010

   


I am making angry faces at myself.  I deserve them!  I do not have restriction, that so-called fill did not help one bit, however I need to get a grip on my eating.  Seriously.   I know that low carb eating is what I NEED to do....my addiction is very much out of control right now.  I just don't want to go in to see Dr. Acosta having gained a lot more weight. 

I went back and read my blog from when I got my 3rd fill that brought me to good restriction (back in May 2008).  I had 3.5 CC's going in and he gave me 1.5.  (That doc said I already had 4.1, but I doubt that was true, since the other Fill Centers docs can't seem to read a syringe correctly either).  So minimum, I am thinking a total of 5 CC's will bring me back to a really good restriction.  That means Dr. Acosta would need to give me 2 CC's.  I don't think I can talk him in to that....but even 1 CC would be much better than what I have now.  This is just ridiculous!

I ended up calling Fill Centers on Friday and telling them how horrible I  think their trained providers are.  I pray that they didn't damage my port or tubing!!  Charlotte, from Fill Centers, was supposed to get back with me today.  Nothing.  I am not too surprised.  Why does everyone want to rip me off lately??   UGH!!!

I am still hovering around 198 lbs.  I am so disgusted with that.  I went on a long walk tonight with my dogs.....I can change one thing at a time.  I have no choice.

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