One More Week Until I Get A Fill

Jul 16, 2010

I am doing my best to try and not gain anymore weight.  I weighed in at 196 this morning.  I have been sticking to protein shakes and soups the past few days.  I am mainly doing that because I kind of wanted to re-set my body like I did after surgery.  My carb addictions are out control lately.  I think it's helping.  Knowing I will see Dr. Acosta in a week is helping, also.  I know that he will be a bit disappointed with me for not losing weight, however, if I could lose weight without good restriction, I wouldn't have needed the band. 

I have a small amount of restriction, I just really need to get back to where the band really did it's part, and then I will get back to losing weight, I am sure.  I want to be able to wear some of the great clothes I bought last fall when the weather cools off this year!!  I also want to get back to loving myself.  I am tired of hating myself, but that is exactly how I feel these days.  *sigh*

Auntie Flo showed up on Wednesday (07-14-10) and she has been a total bitch this month.  I weighed up to 203 on Wednesday and she brought some VERY horrible cramps with her this time.  UGH. 

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