Are Blogs Helpful?

Sep 13, 2010

Someone posted on the lapband board about blogs and wanting to know if anyone had suggestions.  I noted that I update mine once a week at least.  She never acknowledged my post, but whatever.....it got me to thinking.   Does my blog help anyone?  Does anyone ever read it?   I don't know.  I DO know I am VERY happy that I have kept it throughout.  

This inspired me to go back and start reading every single post from two years ago until now.  It's pretty amazing how much I have been through in the last two years.  My husband lost his job, I had a horrible fight and became separated from a person that I considered a very good friend, my best friend died suddenly, a friend attempted suicide, my husband lost another job, my husband lied ot me about paying the mortgage, I separated from my husband, a guy I started dating lied to me about a lot of things, a good friend DID commit suicide, I found out my band had slipped, I had to have surgery to fix my band, I lost my house, and I have gained back a total of 40 pounds.  Wow.......pretty hard and rough 2 years, wouldn't you say?  

The theme that I detected was that I was continually struggling.  I do not lose weight very easily or very fast.  I tried to be good, and would get upset with no or slow weightloss, but I NEVER gave up.  I faithfully logged in my weight and kept my blog up to date.  The weight regain has been pretty devastating.  It really has.  What I am really trying to help myself to believe is that my food isses CAN be under MY CONTROL.  They can!!  Some of the horrible things that have happened to me over these past 2 years (hell, all of my life actually)  were NOT under my control.  I couldn't save Jamie's life.  I had no way of knowing or being able to help MIke before he committed suicide.....but I need to really get a grip on my eating, and carb addiction.  That IS under my control.

I never thought I would be able to stop smoking, but I did it.  I thought giving up Diet Cokes would be next to impossible, but I don't even miss them.  

It was so easy for me to see how much I have tried and SUCCEEDED with my band.....I will do it again.  I will.  

So, I am not sure if my weekly blog helps anyone else.....all I know is that it has sure helped me and I am so glad to have this as a reference.  

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