Lost a loved one and almost slipped into old eating habits.

May 21, 2009

 Today I fought the demons big time. I found out late last night that My one and only Favorite Grandma passed away earlier in the day. Been crying ever since and have been fighting the demons not to cheat all day long. Why do I feel like I want something I can't have? Why do I want to turn to food for support?  I tried to go to work but couldn't stop crying so I went home. Tried to then go back to sleep but that didn't work. Opened & Closed the fridge about 10 times not knowing what I was looking for. Made a Protein shake, that I never even finished. Went to the Donut shop and walked away with only a coffee.(Closecall)
At this point I decided to keep myself busy. I called up my sister and told her I was coming over. I needed to surround myself with my family. We went to lunch and shared a salad, then went to get her a coffee as she was just as tired as I was. We spent most of the day together. When I came home I made a lowcarb Turkey Meatloaf and some FF/SF Cheesecake with Fage Yogurt. I am now sipping on some Water and I feel like I pretty much conquered the day. Tomorrow I am taking another day off to get some rest.
I am exhausted from crying all day. I just have to try and get my strength to make it through the week. Thanks for letting me vent.

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