M. Williams

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I am now just past my one year surgiversary. I started out the day of my surgery at 312 pounds.  I now weigh 174. I find that my whole life has changed.  This was absolutely the BEST decision I have ever made in my life.  I used to wear 3x shirts (which were pretty tight at that point) and now I fit nicely in size Large.  I am still having trouble adapting to the smaller me.  When passing a mirror, I see my reflection sometimes and don't recognize it's actually me until I take a second look.

I have a bit more weight to lose, but I also have a lot of icky, droopy skin.  I am not happy at all with that, and plan to have plastic surgery if I can somehow come up with the funds to do so.  Will probably be a few years before that happens tho.

I have never felt better health-wise in my life!  And getting nice compliments from total strangers is something I don't know how to take just yet.  But I think I am starting to settle into this new life of mine, and I will NOT be looking back.  I pulled up my before pictures not but about a week ago, and it seems like forever ago...yet just like yesterday.  So weird.

I have joined a gym and plan to knock out the last 10-20 pounds pretty soon.  Honestly, even if I didn't lose any more weight but just got rid of the excess skin - I would be COMPLETELY content in my success.

I still have to get my bloodwork done and submit my info to my surgeon, but I think he will be just as happy as I am with my progress!!!!

I have been slacking more than I'd like on th exercise lately.  I have been totally pooped when getting off work.  I realize it is because of the long hours and several things on my plate right now.  But I have to be good to myself.  Only thing sucks bad is that it is SO freaking hot down here, and summer hasn't even started.  Like hell do I want to go walk around a track  at 5pm in the HEAT with the two kids driving me crazy.  So I thought about a gym membership.  they are air conditioned and have a pool - which would be nice to do some casual swimming with the boys (rain or shine - since it's indoor) during the summer.  Also offer childcare up to two hours per day each time you go - all for only $14/month for the two kids.  can't beat that with a stick!  So I am really debating it now.  But thing is do I really want to spend the extra money on it?  I have SO many other things the money could be used for. 

I really think having the membership where I am PAYING for it would make me even more motivated to get there and work out daily - cuz I am NOT paying for something I don't use...EVER!  I think if I can kick it in gear, my last 20-30 pounds may come off pretty easy.  I haven't really done any major exercising since surgery - here and there, yeah - but not steady with it.

I think I will end up getting a membership - just because I HAVE to take care of myself.  i keep putting myself last and on the back burner, but I HAVE to do this for me.  That's why I started this journey, right?

For those who didn't know, I had my gallbladder removed yesterday by Dr Hornbostel. Everything else looked great from the gastric bypass. He thought everything was a great success. So now comes the healing from this surgery.  The next day is always the worst for pain, so keep me in your thoughts today as I go through the "worst" of it.

It seems like the pounds keep melting away, day by day. But I don't feel any different. My clothes fit a little better already, but I still see myself as big as I was to begin with.  Maybe in another 20 pounds I will look at myself and say, "I have lost some weight". But I doubt it.  I have been so overweight for so long I think I will always see myself that big?
Time will tell.  All I know is that I have now lost 14 pounds and I am excited!

It is now one week out, and I have lost 7 pounds from the weight I was on the morning of my surgery (297). I am now at 290, and am so excited about being on my way down! I have been a little sore if I move around a lot during the day.  I am usually pretty active around the house, and am trying to have a "normal" life at this point in time.  But I can't go as long as I used to.  I just wear out so fast. But the pain is gone for the most part.  The incisions are a little tender, and I get a little nauseated when I bend over and stand back up again. I guess that will go away in time.  Still on my limited movement profile for another week - meaning I can't do any vacuuming or lifting over 10 pounds,etc.

It is mostly hard to wrap your mind around the food part of it I think.  I have a hard time believing that I feel so full after just a couple bites of pudding.  I would normally scarf down the entire container and still be hungry. It's weird not being hungry. I hope that comes in time as being normal, but I think it will take a while to get used to!

I just had my WLS on 10JUL09, and am now in the recovery stage.  The gas is a killer, but it is now coming under control a little bit.  I have finally had my first bowel movement today, and am really glad it came. I was absolutely miserable for the past few days.  And the ride home from the hospital was aweful on these MIssouri roads - the winding and the bumps.
I have a great support channel from my friends here, and get check-ups from them regularly.  I can't wait to see how this all unfolds.  I have been on just about every diet known to mankind, and had given up on having an active healthy life.  This journey will be a long one, and most likely tough as well, but I am ready and going to make it!