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wow i weigh 110 lbs and lost 115 lbs! i have reached all my goals! i dont plan on losing more but i cant help but think maybe weighing 105 would be nice, im just so scared of getting fat again that i want to go overboard with gettin skinny. its mostly my stomach that bothers me, if i could get a tummy tuck i would be ecstatic! i dont have 20 grand lying around for it though. im so excited and i cant believe i have actually been able to change my eating habbits. hopefully i can be strong enough to stick to healthy eating forever and not slowely let my old bad habbits sneak in. 110 freakin pounds, i just cant believe it! i seriously want to walk around shouting it lol

june 1, 2010 marks my 1 year surgiversary. what an amazing ride! i really cant believe how far i have come and im amazed!
i have lost almost exactly 1/2 of me poundwise. i have lost a total of 66 1/2 combined inches (a little fact for you: since i am only 5 foot 2 1/2 that makes me 62.5 inches tall, i have lost more inches from around my body than i am tall). i measure my arms, bust, waist, hips, thighs, calves and neck. heres some of the measurements:
my waist started at 44 inches and is now 29 inches!
arms started at 17 1/2 inches and now are 11 1/2 around
hips were 47 inches now they are 32 inches around
thighs were 27 1/2 now they are 18 inches around
calves were18 now they are 13 inches around
something i recently discovered is that my measurments are 32-29-32. that is exciting because im acutally proportionate for once! and not just a big ol apple shape

finally i met another goal- this morning i finally got down to weighing 115 lbs. its just 5 pounds smaller than my last goal but it sure did take (what felt like) forever. i think its harder because i can eat more food and i have learned what "bad" foods i can eat without consequence. im not sure if i just hit a stall,  got to lax in my diet or it was some water retention due to my period coming but it seemed the scale would not budge. it had no problem jumping up and down from 116-118 but it just wouldnt go to 115. untill this morning! i set my first goal at 130 lbs wondering if it was really a possibility since i was never that weight and now here i am well below goal. im amazed. its not effortless but thanks to my RNY i feel in control. occasionally i slide and eat things i shouldnt but im able to get back on track and i dont feel deprived. my last and final goal is 110 lbs. i wont be considered underweight untill im 98 lbs (since im such  shorty) i think 110 will be good. 110 here i come!

i think in clothes i look normal, then they come off and its not such a hot sight. first 5 pic are from today
april 22 2010,weighin 119,  the last 2 were for comparison from december 2009 weighing 141. i dont have any pre-op to show my fat belly since i would never take pictures like that pre-op but for comparison purposes i wish i had 1 or 2. i have lost 106 lbs since surgery and about 125 or so from my all time high weight. i knew my tummy didnt have a chance since i was obese for about 10 years plus had 4 pregnancies with babies weighing 8.4 lbs- 9.10 lbs. i would love some plastic surgery but it looks like it wont happen anytime soon and so im accepting myself for now. some days are good days and im amazed at the weight loss and that my skin isnt that bad, other days i feel super fat and like my saggy skin is the worst ever, so needless to say i go back and forth on my feelings about my post-op body. im still happy i had surgery though, i can hide the skin very well i think. the fat wasnt as easy to hide.
*posted some nudes in my before and after section, be warned or enjoy lol

i passed my 2nd goal of weighing 120 lbs, i never thought i would ever be this light. im shooting for 115 lbs. im unsure if im getting too skinny though. my stomach is my problem area and in order to shrink it i have to keep losing but i feel my face, arms, booty and thighs are all thing enough. if only i could pick and choose where i lost fat from lol. i had my husband shoot some comparison pix for me in my swimsuit. so here they are. im currently 119 lbs and unsure of when to stop losing, im still in healthy range and would be at a healthy weight all the way down to 98 or 99 lbs (i dont plan on going that low) i didnt plan on ever having more than 1 goal but once i got to that goal i realized i could achieve more plus im scared of that 10-15 lbs of regain ppl talk about after the initial losing phase. i have lost 106 lbs since surgery and about 126 from my all time heaviest.

wow! what a great sentence, i weigh 128 lbs! im working towards 120 and it was very easy to get back on track. i was bothered about my calories, eating 1000-1200 in a day and i very easily managed to get back on track eating every 3-4 hours and no grazing in between. i know 1000-1200 calories was not a high calorie diet but by making better choices and not grazing i can comfortably stay around 800-900 calories. i could never stick to a diet before and now im just amazed that once i realized i didnt like the calorie choices i was making i decided to change it, and i did it! and i stuck with it! its an amazing feeling to feel in control of your body, before wls i couldnt take the cravings, i had to have what i wanted and in large amounts, but now its so much easier to know i shouldnt eat something and then not eat it, or if i choose to treat myself i know i can take a small bite and stop there. before there was no stopping if there was food left to eat. i feel wonderful, ppl tell me i look wonderful, ppl seem amazed at the dramatic difference and i love it. im mostly in a jrs jeans size 5 but i did get 2 pairs in size 3 the other day! i think they were "big" 3's since not all size 3's fit me but hey whatever, thats a tag that makes me feel great!

on jan-27-2010 i reached my goal of weighing 130 lbs! what a great feeling!  im wearing a size 7 jeans in jr.'s. i am hoping to get to 120 lbs so i guess you can say thats my next goal. weightloss has really slowed down and i noticed the scale wont move for 2 weeks at a time vs. the earlier months when weight fell off daily and weekly. i knew it would come to a slow down though. i do worry that i may be slowing the weight loss by eating 1000-1200 calories a day or having too many carbs. knowing that i eat around 1000 calories a day scares me and almost makes me think without a doubt i will get fat again. i know its not high calories for a day but i got used to only eating 600-800 calories a day, so now 1000 seems like alot.  i know the pouch gets a little larger as we get further out form surgery, and this is all normal but its still scarey to know i could be fat again. i still weigh my food out to 4 oz portions. i have however taken up eating popcorn (jiffy healthy pop) its not a bad choice because i choose a healthy one but the reason i eat is because i can eat alot of it before feeling full. it feels like a lot going in my mouth but after chewing, it loses its volume. this is worrisome because the "fat" me was a volume eater. i see that this could be a problem of old patterns sneaking back in. as we already know when those old ways sneak back in, the pounds sneak back on. i do try to stick to my eating schedule but some days it just goes out the window. i kind of wish it was required to have follow up with a nutritionist or psych. but my insurance only wanted me to see them once right before surgery. back to the up side, i got a great, new, super cute haircut. my hair was looking pretty thin and i had to do something so i got it cut into a chin lenght bob. it looks great! i could not have pulled off this short do pre-op. i feel sexy and comfortable in my skin. getting dressed and clothes shopping is so much fun. its really hard to stop shopping, i dont want to spend too much $$$ because im hoping to lose some more weight and then these clothes will be too big.

wow, i know i have 1 pound left to lose but basically im at goal! freakin awesome! i have lost 94 lbs since june 2009. so these are my before and after pix. i really thought i would never get to the "after" part. i was so scared i would be a slow loser but i made it to from 225 lbs in june 2009 to 131 lbs by mid jan 2010.  i think thats pretty good and pretty fast. im unsure if i will stop at 130 or if i want to shoot for 120 lbs. i am a shorty at 5' 2.5"  i am so scared of re-bound weight, which makes me want to get underweight just so i wont get fat again, i know thats not healthy though. im also scared that i will wake up fat again. skinny feels so good!

5 month progress pics.

i am just days short of being 21 weeks post-op. i like to count weeks vs months since they are more accurate. a week is always 7 days but 1 month is not always an equal 4 weeks. i am down 69 lbs! i cant believe it. i dont think my mind has caught up with my physical body yet because even though i know the scale has moved alot and i can wear a jr size 13 or large, in the mirror naked i still see the same body. when im dressed i do take a double take and im amazed thats my body, thats my waist that goes in in the middle instead of out? thats me that actually has somewhat of an hourglass figure vs the appl figure i had before? its wierd, i dont know why i can see a difference in clothing but not naked. im so very happy though. getting dressed feels good now. i know i have not reqched goal yet (26 lbs left to lose) but i cant believe i used to be 69 lbs bigger. watching my face thin and collar bones appear is just amazing. now i wish i hadnt got rid of all my jeans from 5 years ago. i had finally decided i was going to be fat forever and it was time to ret rid of the smaller clothes. little did i know i would have this life changing opritunity and need them again.