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i am 15 1/2 weeks out and went from 225 lbs to 168 lbs so far. im a shorty so im still pretty thick but my jeans size 14 are getting kinda loose soon i will get to be a 12. on average i lose about 4 lbs a week, i weigh almost every morning and it seems like i wont lose any weight for 5 days then bam on day 6 or 7 im down 3 pounds. no complaints here   cant wait to see how small i can get, cant wait to be called skinny one day. that will be weird!

3 month post op pix. i was 225 lbs on the top set of pix and 175 in the bottom set of pix (down 50 lbs) i had 45 lbs left to lose to reach my goal of 130 lbs. im 5'2" i love that i dont seem as short the skinnier i get. i also think i look like a stuffed sausage in my befores lol. gettin closer, as of today 9/13/09 i am 38 lbs away from goal

it still seems so un-real that i actually had the surgery. it seems too good to be true. i have lost 42 lbs and want to lose 53 more. i wanted the wls so bad then i had it and the whole 1st week i was kind of scared, thinking "what have i done to myself?" i was in post-op pain and didnt want to eat anything but had to force myself to get in enough water and protein. fastforward to week 10, im sooooo happy! this has been such an awesome life change, im so proud. thankgod i finally found a protein i like, it makes life 1000 times easier. i cant believe at 10 weeks out im so close to having 50% of my excess weight gone. i have become too small for alot of my clothes and i can cross my legs comfortably and do so alot. i feel sexier and my husband is constantly telling me how small i feel when he holds me. i still have a ways to go and im always scared one morning i will wake up fatter again.  i still just cant believe in april i asked my dr about gastric bypass and by june i was under the knife and today im 42 lbs down. i have never lost 42 lbs before. i was such a failure at diets im so excited this is working!

yay here i am, tomorrow i will be 5 weeks out from my gastric bypass. i have lost about 29 lbs since my surgery on june 1st 2009. i dont see a change when i look in the mirror but my clothes and weekly measurements and the scale are my proof. i cant wait to see the difference in myslef that everyone else says they see. this is all still so un-real. i wanted it so bad and it took me a few years to get it. the first couple weeks after surgery i had some moments where i would tell my husband "oh shit what have i done to myself, i cant handle this, i need to eat what i want, i would rather stay fat. omg what and why did i do this?" luckily it passed. its just such a shocker to your system to suddenly not eat the way you have for a very long time. there is such a big difference in what your head thinks you need vs. what you really need foodwise. now im extatic and cant believe i actually had it done. its still hard at times and i know im still a newbie but just seeing that i made it 5 weeks  makes it easier, it does get easier every week.

i got approved! i get to have wls!! im so excited, i cant wait to be normal again. i cant wait to watch the pounds drop and be able to enjoy getting dressed everyday. to wear cute things. to move comfortably. to not feel like ppl are only looking at me cuz im fat. to shop anywhere instead of only in the plus size section which doesnt have much to chhose from. to have more energy. to enjoy everything more insted of feeling bad about my weight.  to just feel comfortable being me. i have such a wonderfull life filled with great ppl but none of that makes the feelings i get from being obese go away. no matter how great things are or how good ppl are i am still me and i was still controled by my feelings about my weight. to know im about to be free of the physical and mental weight is so exciting.
more things i cant wait for when im skinny:
to be able to comfprtably cross my legs
wear a sexy corset in the bedroom for my hubby
easily bend over and pull up my pants and tie my shoes
to be able to just toss my foot up to put on and tie my shoe instead of struggle to pull my foot up
to be my hubbys hot wife instead of his blah wife
to be a milf lol
to lay on my back and not feel like my chest is so heavy its hard to breath
to have a regular towel wrap all the way around my body instead of buying the big beach towels
to run around with my kids and not jiggle so much
to not have such a huge roll when i sit down
to know im normal
to know im healthy

finally all the test results got sent to the surgeon.so they got everythign was sent to my insurance yesterday for approval. hopefully by friday i will know if im approved or denied. the surgeon already booked my surgery for the 29th of this month so im hoping that means she knows i will be approved .so i just want friday to hurry up and get here so i can have my for sure answer.

omg i got a surgery date! i cant get too excited though since it hasnt been approved by my insurance yet. i have had my psych eval, met with nutritionist, had abdominal u/s and the e.g.d. done. those were the only things i had to get done so everything could be sent to my insurance (medi-cal) the receptionist from the surgeons office called me yesterday to tell me the surgery is scheduled for the 29th. but everythign wont get sent to insurance untill monday and i may have the approval or denial by friday. the surgeon must know my insurance will approve it...like i said though i dont want to get excited cuz in the end u never know what loophole insurance could find to deny the surgery