Not doing so good!

Jun 02, 2011

Ok so lately I just am not motivated. I was so motivated and then when I had a meeting with my Dr she sort of burst my bubble and i just haven't been able to get past it. Sometimes I hate having a skinny person who obviously has never had to deal with what I as a heavy person has tell me what to do. They act like it should be no problem to loose weight! NOT if it was I wouldn't be where I am!! She just didn't understand I felt. I just need to get past it but I felt like I had jumped through so many hoops to get to that point and was so excited and she just deflated me with her comments.

We have also  had alot of things going on at home and my focus has not been on me. I am the type that does for every one else and neglects myself. I have not been making good choices and I feel like am sabotaging myself after I have worked so hard toget this far. I don't want to give up! I don't want to go back to bad habits and I do because they are easy and I hate it! It's a viscious cycle! I am starting to think maybe I am addicted to food or sugar. I am just very frustrated and want to stay positive and get back on the right track. I can't find a support group in my area and I know that is a huge part of the problem.  That's my strory these days.

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