Waiting is the hardest part ??

Jan 18, 2009

Today is January 18, 2008. I have done my sixth months of weigh-ins, scheduled my psych eval and nutritionist appointments and am hopefully going to get good news from the insurance company in a couple of weeks.

Like most, I have been struggling with my weight and have tried too many diets to mention to only gain the weight back and then some. I haven't been overweight my whole life, just the last 12 years I would say. Two kids and two divorces pretty much did it for me. I now weigh my all-time high of 269 lbs at age 40. I really didn't picture me looking like this at 40.

My goal is to weigh around 140-145 which is about 15 lbs over what the guidelines say I should weigh. I'm trying to be realistic. I look forward to being able to keep up with my grandkids, feel better about myself and not be so disgusted every time I look in the mirror. I can't tell you how many times I've said, "Michelle, why did you do this to yourself". My husband and I have some fabulous hobbies. Aside from fun with the kids, grandkids, family, and friends we love to ride our motorcycles. We love to travel. I am so looking forward to sight-seeing without being exhausted, swollen all over, and out-of-breath. I, unlike my husband, enjoy going to the gym and working out. Neither one of us have good eating habits anymore. We used to and now we do but it's off and on. I've read so many testimonies on here and it has made more eager to get started with this so I have to say so far that the waiting is the hardest part.

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