Meg Q.
October 11, 2007...2 years later
Oct 10, 2007
I am so sad these days because I feel like a statue watching my marriage fall apart around me. We have a lot of issues and are going to begin couseling. I feel like we owe it to ourselves to try and work through our problems with counseling but I don't know what will happen. When I got married it was forever in my mind and now I am here, I just feel so helpless. I won't bore anyone with details but I guess the problems we are having don't surprise me, they were a long time coming, I guess you could say the shit hit the fan. My life just seems so up in the air right now and I am a very confused girl these days. I just hope I have the strength to get through this and if we can't work things out, well, I will worry about that when and if the time comes..
December 2006
Dec 06, 2006
October 2006
Oct 17, 2006
August 2006
Jul 31, 2006
8/3/06....The end of summer is drawing near. It just has been so stinking hot the past couple of days here in Michigan...uuggghhh. However, I can only imagine how miserable I would be if I was at my pre-op weight. Yeah I do not even want to think about it. I weighed myself this morning....189 lbs! I have lost 151 pounds...crazy!!! I am going to rant for a minute about "society". I was shopping yesterday. The treatment I receive now compared to before is much different...why? I am glad that I finally have a little RESPECT but mad at the same time. I truly believe that someone real large becomes invisible. It is wierd to actually be seen!
July 2006
Jun 30, 2006
May 2006
Apr 30, 2006
5/18/06...I'm back from Colorado and it was a great trip. It was kindof chilly that week which is really unusual this time of year but we still had a great time. I once again got on a airplane without any fear of the dreaded seatbelt. Today I am currently down 132 pounds weighing in at 208 pounds wearing a 16 pant and large shirt. Wow my goal before this surgery was to be 175 pounds and wear a size 14 pant and to be honest I thought that might be a stretch but I am almost there! I feel great! Last night I was a guest speaker at a Bariatric presentation my surgeon puts on every month. It was a lot of fun. I get very nervous when I talk in front of people but I think I did alright. I brought a few before pictures and an outfit I wore at 340 pounds. I could not believe the difference myself! When I put those pants up to my new body I almost cried it would of been happy tears of course. It was cool to talk about my experience and answer questions of hopeful patients. I hope I can do it again :) Maybe next time I won't be so nervous.
April 2006
Mar 31, 2006
4/4/06....I'm Baaaccckkkk....I'm feeling good, eating good, and loving life. What else can I say? I am down 121 pounds now...wow it is nuts! I have gone from 26/28 top and pant to 18/20 pant and L/XL shirt. Everytime I put on a large top or something in the back of my mind I am saying yeah right that is not gonna fit and sure enough it does! Just happened this morning with a large polo I bought last summer. I am going to see my best friend next month, she has lived in Colorado for about 5 years and I have never visited, I always used the money excuse but basically I think I really just did not want to deal with flying, which is such a NON issue anymore and I just love that. My sister is going out there with me so it is just the girls and should be a great time. I am still plugging away at looking for a new (higher paid) career that I know I deserve. Hopefully that will fall into place this year. Well I guess that is it for now. Bye Bye
4/28/06...Well I am down 125 lbs :) I just cannot believe it sometimes. Next weekend I am flying out to Colorado and I am so excited. Tonight I am meeting up with a couple of ex-coworkers and friends and am really excited to just hang out after work and catch up. We go out for lunch once in awhile but are always rushed so tonight we can relax. This weekend shall bring fun times. Last summer my sister got me hooked on garage sales. I can't believe some of the great stuff I find. Obviously one of the things I am looking for is clothes and I have always liked nice stuff and amazingly enough I find some great brands out there. So now it is a tradition. We have fun and get to spend time together away from our men :)
March 2006
Feb 28, 2006
Would I have surgery again even with my complications?? YES.
February 2006
Jan 31, 2006
January 2006
Dec 31, 2005
1/9/06....Ok well it has just been about 3 months since my surgery and I am doing good, I am down almost 90 pounds from my highest weight which is awesome, I look good and more importantly feel good these days. I did run into a period of constant nausea for about 2 weeks in December which was horrible. That feeling is the worst! Long story short after a series of xrays and upper GI, it was found that I had developed a fistula and stricture. I have had one scope done and will have 2 more and then hopefully the fistula will be closed. I am headed to Cancun in a few weeks and am so ready. I am almost excited to see how much easier it is to fly and even splurged on a new swim suit for myself. It is a tankini, it does not show skin but you can see my fat roll of course but I do not give a s***! I feel much better today than last summer and I thought it was cute so it is mine. The resort is all inclusive which makes me nervous food wise, I just hope there will be plenty of protein enriched foods!
1/16/06...Last week I had the second scope procedure. The procedure itself is nothing and I thought the IV was no big deal until this time when it took them 4 tries to get it started! I am still bruised on my hands UUUGGGHH! This time good news came afterwards...the fistula was closed! The stricture was starting to close a little bit so he opened that back up but other than that things looked good and my surgeon seemed happy which made me likewise! Less than 2 weeks until I leave for Cancun! :) I am so ready for this vacation, can't hardly contain myself. Although I must say it is hard to find new summer clothes in January! I found some old shorts I could wear but I am more of a capri girl now. ANYWAYS, I am sure I will figure something out. It is pretty cool how fast I go through sizes these days, it is so much nicer than before when I would wear things until buttons were basically popping off. I will never forget where I came from but will always be grateful on how far I have come!