NewDayDawning
Twelve Weeks
Sep 09, 2009
Wow time is flying by fast! I was just thinking back last night to the way I was feeling just after the surgery. Back then I was thinking things like "I can't wait until I can bend over without it hurting like hell" or "I can't wait to sleep on my side comfortably the whole night through."Now here I am not only bending over, but I can sit on the floor with my feet in front of me and touch my toes - with my nose touching my knees!!!
I have much more energy most days and most days do not mourn food. Labor Day weekend was a very tough one for me. Lots of picnics and parties. I was dying for some chocolate and the kids had some malted milk balls in the house and I ate 4 of them.. no dumping. So later I ate a few more.. then the next day a few more. I finally got a grip and had a little "internal chat" as I like to call them. It went something like this - pardon the f'bombs.
"Dumbass what the FUCK are you doing? You did not have this surgery so you could sabotage your chances of getting thin!"
"Seriously, does that candy taste THAT good that you are willing to get off-track? You have sugar free candy on the other counter. You have sugar free fudgicles in the freezer. Those are chocolate too - go get those if you MUST have something sweet."
"I am seriously going to have to get your ass into counseling if you think this shit is going to continue."
And so it went on for a day.. then I threw the candy out - never to return into my house. I also threw away a brownie cheesecake I found that the boys had in the freezer and two unfinished containers of Ben & Jerry's. I feel bad throwing perfectly good food out - but none of us need it.
I've behaved the rest of the week and got some good exercise in - walking with the dog.
Today's weigh in showed 8 pounds in the last two weeks. . . While on my period. My friend at work and I went into the locker room so I could weigh in (remember I handed over custody of my scale) and we both HOWLED when we saw that the scale went from 244 to 236.
I am hoping to be in the 220's by the time I go to Albuquerque NM October 1st. I may just hit that goal!
