newmeplease
I just want to be comfortable with myself. I have always been a big healthy guy. I was 285 as a senior in HS, then blew up to 328 in my first year of College Football. I dieted and worked out to get down to 230 in about 10 months. After College I could yo-yo in the range or 230-280. I was in my 20's worked out everyday and even completed a couple of 5k runs. I stayed under 260 for about 5 years.
Now I am 33 and have been over 350 for about 3 years and can not maintain that lifestyle i once could to lose the weight and keep it off. I am now older with more responsibilities and can not yo-yo my lifestyle to lose the weight on my own. So now i want this tool to police me and my actions. So when I get to a safe weight I can then resume an active lifestyle with exercise without an aching back (Disc surgery 11/08), hurting knees and ankles.
Also to improve my life with My wife and start a family. I am taking away from her quality of life in many ways....especially social. I hate meeting her friends and co-workers because they must expect so much more from her. It kills me to know that when we leave they are saying things like "Wow what was she thinking" or "I would of never expected that", after they meet her 370lb husband. But i want to spend the time with her and do the things she wants but she does not understand why i would rather stay at home and order a pizza than go to a club and hang out with her friends. And I don't expect her to but she finally supports my decision and i cant wait to make her happy.
