PameW
Second Fill completed!
Jun 29, 2009
Just got back from having my second fill today! He only added .5 cc to my band. So I am at 4.5. The doctor says that some people do great at this restriction but that we will see how I'm doing 6 weeks from now. This was my offical 3 month check up and he said I'm doing fantastic and to keep up the good work. I had an encouraging talk with my NUT also. She was blown away by how good I'm doing. They keep asking me what my goal weight is and I've had the same reply each time, "HEALTHY." To me, it is not a number, but how good I'm feeling. I just don't want to think about numbers on a scale anymore. I want to concentrate on controlling my head hunger, cravings and eating the proper things/amounts. That is all it is about for me now. Once I can control all of those things, maybe and that is a big maybe, I'll throw a number at them. I think it will take months before I can control all of these issues, so I have time to really come up with what I will be comfortable at.In these last few months, there have already been so many changes to me all together. I had my check up with my oncologist and he wanted me to lose 25lbs prior to my 3 month visit. When he saw me he was floored. I just smiled and told him that I saw his 25 and raised him 25 more. It was the absolute best feeling in the world. Throughout my entire exam he kept commenting how he couldn't believe how far I'd come in such a short period of time. When we sat to talk after my exam he told me that he watched me walk into the office and saw that I moved completely different than previously. He says that there is an entire new air of confidence and self respect about me. He said that he'll be looking forward to see what the next 3 months bring. I told him I was too!
I saw my counselor on the very next day. We talked for our usual hour and at the end of the conversation he stopped and told me that I had been smiling the entire time. I just had to laugh! That is major progress! I've been thru so much in the last 6 years that more often than not, you wouldn't find me with a smile. There was so much weighing we down both figuratively and literally! My cancer journey has been long and this weight that continues to fall off is helping to insure that it stays in remission for as long as possible (hoping for forever)!
With this weight loss I'm finding that I have more energy to do things. I'm able to play with my godchildren, take long walks, do things around the house and generally just move more. I've dropped 2 sizes and I'm hoping that this new fill brings me down another size. I'm looking forward to what the next few months bring and celebrating my 40th birthday in grand style!
