peanutinpa
At my highest, I weighed 370 pounds. I could say that I don't know how I got there but I do. Soda, fast food, chips...you name it.
For a long time I swallowed all my feelings and feelings of inadequacy with food. I went to three places for consultations on wls surgery. I walked away from all of them. I guess it wasn't time time for me. Finally, one day, I woke up and knew that it was the right time. I met Dr. Soriano at Temple Hospital and knew that he was the right doctor. I had my surgery on August 20, 2009. I weighed 265.7 on the day of my preop and two weeks later on the day of surgery, I weighed 345. I am nine months out and am sitting at 204. There are days that I wonder if I will get under the 200 pound mark little lone make 165 but I am going to keep plugging along. It is all I can do. I figured out that I owe it to myself. Yesterday when I was out walking, I realized that I let being overweight rule my life. I have missed out on so much of life. Being overweight led to depression and laziness. It ultimately had a part in my divorce. Food ruled my life. I am a food addict. In alot of ways like an alcoholic, cocaine addict, etc. only I need my addiciton of choice to live. I am slowly learning to adjust. It is hard though. I am trying to learn to accept myself for who and what I am. I think that will take a long time before I am there. I have been reading the OH boards for a while now. They have helped me so much with the day to day stuff and questions that I have. I am taking it day by day. I can't wait to get into onderland and ultimately make my goal.
