QPixidust
Hmmm I don't know where to even begin....
Lets start with that once I used to model, small time nothing big. After I met my husband, I got pregnant and had many complications. I was told to be on bed rest. So the day I start to go into labor I go to the hospital and find out I was gaining approx 7 lbs a day the last couple weeks of my pregnancy due to all the complications i.e. high blood pressure, toxemia and pre-eclampsia. My entire pregnancy I gained 103 lbs, and it seemed I lost none of it after I had him. I was breastfeeding and found out when he was six months old that I was expecting our second baby. I gained about 33 lbs with him, and lost it after having him, but still could not get off the weight from the 1st pregnancy. 3 years go by and I have my daughter, and gained about the same as my 2nd child, and lost all that weight too. Ugh...well...then I had lots of turmoil and drama in my life that lead me to bury my sorrows, and every other emotion in a bag of chips and dip on a regular basis. And not to mention...hide away from the world in my house on my computer. There is more to it, just feeling like this isn't the place to air out my soap opera type life.
Anyway, now I am approx 358 lbs, and miserable. I can barely get out of my own bed in the morning because everything is so stiff and achey. Things have been feeling way worse lately, lots more acid indigestion...lots more aches and pains, especially in my back. My biggest concern has been the circulation in my legs. Every day I see Nutrisystem commercials I keep thinking to myself God, I wish I had the money so I can get skinny again. So I can have my life back the way it should be, before my children get too much older and won't want Mom playing with them.
I lost my mother to breast cancer, one year ago... April 23rd, 2008. I worry that with all I have against me with cancer, heart disease, arthritis, and god knows what else in my family...that I am playing russian roulette here with my life. I better do something about it, and DO IT NOW! God willing, and insurance too, I hope and pray I find the help that I desperately need.
Well thats my story, in a nutshell...
