*~*~My ReAsOnS~* ~*
YoU ThInK YoU KnOw...BuT YoU HaVe No IdEa...
This is the diary of me...Dana. Yeah, it's kinda corny, but then again so am I. I don't really know how to introduce myself, do I really need an introduction to MY page? Anywho, I guess my story is the typical story of a "fat" person, maybe it's completely different...I really don't know but I know that it is MY story. I was always big...or bigger...from the time I was born and even after dieting for years. I'm not too sure where I got it from, my family is realatively small-sized.
I'll skip over most of the boring details of my life and just give the really quick overview. My parents divorce and absenteeism, sexual and verbal abuse and depression were all parts of the equation that lead me to turn to food as my best friend. Food was always there for me and gave me instant gratification, it never had anything negative to say or ways to make me feel bad about myself. But that gratification was just that...instant...and then it was back to emptiness once I took a crap or once my stomach wasn't as full. All those problems led to ugly, festering, ulcerating wounds on the inside. But wounds eventually turn into scars...but those scars last forever.
Scars huh? Scars mean I've healed right? Sorta...I still cry, I still hurt...and I probably always will but with the Lord's help it gets easier every day. I love me for who I am on the inside now...that's what counts right? Only not for society. Beauty is what counts. In taking the time to heal from the inside, I lost track on the upkeep of the outside. In my search for myself...I found the Lord...God is good. *raises hands in the air* Yes He is. He has given me the love, the hope, the faith, the ability to carry on and face tomorrow. He's led me on a journey that changed my whole outlook on life...from the fat, funny looking caterpillar to a soaring, free butterfly...Yep...me a butterfly. So cliche huh? Now I am assuming responsiblity for the quality of my own life...and God willing I will have this surgery.
My virtual model picture of where I am now (277 pounds) and where I want to be (141 pounds~normal BMI).
| DATE | CURRENT WEIGHT | WEIGHT LOST | TOTAL WEIGHT LOST | BMI |
| AUGUST 8, 2006 (pre-op) | 283.5 LBS | 0 LBS | 0 LBS | 48.5 |
| AUGUST 22, 2006 (pre-op) | 280.5 LBS | 3 LBS | 3 LBS | 48 |
| SEPTEMBER 6, 2006 (pre-op) | 273.6 LBS | 6.9 LBS | 9.9 LBS | 46.9 |
| SEPTEMBER 15, 2006 (pre-op) | 269.2 LBS | 4.4 LBS | 14.3 LBS | 46.1 |
NOVEMBER 13, 2006 | 275 | +5.8 LBS | 8.5 LBS | BMI |
| NOVEMBER 20, 2006 | 256 | 19 | 27.5 | 43.9 |
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