RavenShadows

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I have felt like a failure for so long.  I did really good for a long time.  But I have failed,  my body has failed.  I quit smoking,  I got remarried after a horrible 1st marriage and divorce.  Now I am looking to having a revision.  Will probably have my 1st appointment with a new surgeon soon. 

Well it has almost officially been 10 years since my vbg.  I weigh less than my goal weight, I am sick off and on.  I still have problems with acid reflux, but the main problem is all the excess skin.  I wish I could get it removed... at least some of it, but with no insurance to pay for it and horrible credit thanks to my ex husband, well... it just is not an option.  I am so thankful for the surgery though.  I know I had my doubts, mostly about myself but I am happy now.  I am able to walk for miles with out problems, I can go to theme parks with my kids and fit on most of the rides (note here.... Knotts Berry Farm rides are made for tiny people), I go to the regular parks, I volunteer at an elementary school and I go out and play handball and softball with the kids.  I participate in a LOT of activities I never would have before and I am a little more sure of myself.  The hardest thing for me is seeing the person who weighs 234 pounds rather than 600 pounds in the mirror.  I look at myself and still see the old me.  Hopefully someday this too will fade.  Thank you Dr. Francis for saving my life....for giving me a new life.  It has not always been easy, but it is definitely worth it.  Anyone reading this... yes it is scary, yes it is hard, but it gets easier.  Don't give up and don't ever let anyone tell you that you are not worth it...because you are.