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WOW!!
I cant believe how long its been since Ive written here, time just seems to fly by.
Well the weight loss has slowed almost to a complete stop, that sucks but I  have joined the local gym with my daughter so im hoping that will do something.  Im now walking 2 miles a day as well.  Im trying to help slim my daughter down without being to obvious about it.  I dont want to give her a complex or make her feel bad about herself my mom rode me like a dog about my weight when i was her age so i dont want to do that with her, it is very hard though because she honestly does not think she has a weight problem.  She is around 5 foot 4 and weighs 196 pds she is a big girl she is only 13.  Im hoping the gym will help her to as well as i am controlling her portions which is extremely difficult cause she will not work with me at all.
We had to drag out one of my husbands big black army boxes and start locking his bucket snacks and chips up cause she kept sneaking them, I know that sds extreme but I wasnt sure what else to do.
Im still hanging in there with the job I have been there 7 months now, I feel slightly better about it but it still stresses me out like crazy.
Im still also trying to wrap my head around the fact that my husband is going back to Iraq this September he wont even be home a whole year.
Im going to go back to school ive decided this spring, I eventually want my masters every one asks me why cause i have no desire to be a nurse practitioner which is what my husband wants me to do i just want that masters to show that i could do it, and maybe someday when im to old to walk the halls anymore i may teach i dont know i just know I want it.
My 9 month check up which was late, actually ended up being a 10 month check up went real well, the nut. said im doing great, and she said i was eating right about what i should be, i was worried that i was eating to much.  she told me not to be a big calorie counter just try to keep it around 900 for now to loose that last 36 pds.
I have been grazing a little which i know is terrible I have an obsession with cheese its, I love them!!! I eat the reduced fat but i know they are still not good for you.  I also eat rice ckaes the caramel corn is really good.
I finally took the plunge and got me a new vehicle to a jeep liberty, black.  I like it.
Well thats it for now will try to not lets so much time go by before i write again.

Well its only a few days away now, I do have all my shopping done, early to this year and i am proud of myself cause i didnt over do it on my kid this year.  She may not be thrilled about it but i cut way back on her, i got her about 3 high priced items this year and a few smaller things.  I was able to get her a wii which i cant wait to play myself.  I have to work christmas night which sucks but i have no choice. Iam down to 175 now which is good but it is still moving a lot slower.  I get so disgusted when i try and upload pics to this site i got one up there but had more and they never show up.  Ive been having trouble with my back lately, being in ICU i have a lot of comatose or near that patients, and they are alot of work and usually alot of dead weight.  Ive been sleeping with a heat pad on my back every night. We got a good snow here the last couple of days, its pretty te first day then im over it, im not that big a cold weather person, my husband loves it even more since being in iraq.  I am still 8 months out finding it hard to get my protein in, I have tried cutting down to 1 shake a day then getting the rest with food but i dont think im cutting it, it is so hard.  Well guess thats all for now Merry christmas to all!!

Well I had 2 Thanksgiving dinners to go to, one the night before and one the day of, I will say I didnt do to bad I did eat a roll at each one and i felt very guilty for that but i did make sure I ate mostly turkey at both places.  I got a pumpkin pie recipe off of here on the message board and I gotta say it was AWESOME!!  I made it and took it and no one even knew it was almost completely fat free and sugar free it was really good.
My birthday was Friday and I have to say it sucked, my husnabd and I got into it over money go figure and he left and went deer hunting and my daughter went to a friends so I spent the bulk of it alone, im kinda down when i think about it i am already 36 years old thats almost 40 for crying out loud.  I dont feel that old and I guess its not that old but to me it is!!
My scale has started oving again thank God cause I was getting worried I feel like I have wasted a whole month.  No one really mentioned my weight loss at the family gathering but when i was at my biggest really none of them saw me that way cause I stayed at home or at school the entire time.  Im just glad im lossing again.  I ran into a friend who is about a year out and i had not seen her since before surgery but everyone was telling how awful she now looks, shes lost to much her hair has all fallen out but when I saw her I thought she looked great she was thin but not grossly thin and she told me she had just went and got the weave thing for her hair, you couldnt even tell
her hair looked great. She has went all about it all wrong she never drank protein shakes or tried to eat alot of protein nor has she ever taken vitamins and she has never went back to get her levels checked either so i know she probably isnt to healthy and I told her she needed to get some labs drawn so she could see where she was but im sure she wont anyway she did look good, i think she said she was the same weight as she was in highschool.
I dont so much care if i get that little my doctors goal weight is 132 but i think i would be happy around 140-145.  Lets face it anything is better that 291!!
I was watching Brookhaven this evening and that 700 pound guy was on there and i told my husband that could have easily been me he said no way I would not have let you get that big and I thought what in the heck do you think you could have done to stop me but i just let it go he does not understand obesity or weight problems at all.
I still love him though and Im still glad he is home!!!
Well guess Ill cut out for now
Happy Holidays
Reagan 

I have only lost 2 pounds in the last month, that sux!!  I had my high school reunion last night had lots of fun alot of people told me i havent changed much since highschool ( and i was thinking to myself you should have seen me about 7 months ago!!)
I did drink and i did get drunk woke up today with a hell of a hangover.
I had a big duhh moment to this morning i have been terrified to drink diet coke for fear my stomach would explode and i would!!  and it hit me this morning that if i could drink beer last night i could drink the diet coke,  BUT  I was a big diet coke addict it was all i ever drank all day everyday so im going to try and not drink it as long as i can if you play with the bull you get the horns you know what i mean?
So i got to just put this out there since my husband has been home I have been a sex addict i mean i can not get enough and i dont know if it is the weight loss or because he was gone a year and a half but we are having the best sex we have ever had in our 14 years of marriage it is truly HOTTTTT.
ok im done with.
i have desperatly been searching around for one of those stupid nintendo wii games for my daughters christmas cant find one anywhere but i will continue the that mission. well i guess thats all i got for now.

I havent been on in awhile since hubby has been home we have ran nonstop!!  Its a good thing i have lost a bunch of weight cause i cant hardly keep up with him now!!  I have lost 101pds so far, i didnt make the 100 pound mark by the exact date of my 6 month annversary but made it the very next day go figure, oh well im not complaining.  My 6 month check up went well all my labs were good and they told me i had now lost 59% of the weight i need to lose and anything over 50% is considered a success.
My husband is home and it has been great, he hasnt really said a whole lot about my weight but i didnt count on him doing that anyway he just doesnt say a whole lot about anything, but i do catch him looking me up and down a lot and we have had sex nonstop since he has cme home, i know i know to much info but i LOVE IT!!!
I am really feeling good health wise, and me and hubby are geting to know each other again which it has been a big adjustment i have been the boss around here for over a year now, not use to checking with him on decisions and things so its taking awhile to get back to our old selves, which i think both of us have changed alot in this past year and we might not go back to our old selves so we are getting to know the new us!!
I can tell he really missed me.  We went camping for 5 days just the 3 of us that was fun then we went and visited his dad for a week in dallas texas.
Im still not real crazy about my job, im trying to stick it out for 6 months before i make my decision to stay or go but somedays i get there and i just want to run and hide in a closet for the next 12 hours, my husband of ourse says if he can stand iraq i can do this which i know he is right but i also feel like a person should like there job, i dont know we will see what happens.
my daughter is having a little more trouble adjusting to dad bing home, she is a terrible slob and me and her have had some major battles over her bedroom my husband came home took one look at it and just tore it apart he dumped all the clothes out of the drawers took the drawers out took everything off shelves, I mean it was so bad you couldnt open the door.  She was at school when he did this, he took pictures off it blew them up on the computer took all her posters down and taped them up then he hung a sign on her door that said DADDYS HOME!!  Sop that went over ike a lead balloon when she got home, actually i thought it was kinda funny and she spent the next 2 days cleaning that room and it was good for her and so far knock on wood she has kept it clean, my husband told her he goes in there and finds one sock out of place or one gum wrapper on the floor and he would do it all over again.  So we will see how that goes to.  Oh yeah and the new pup i got that i absolutely no matter what could not get potty trained, she crapped in the floor 1 time since my husband has been home and he busted her butt ( i thought a little to hard) and she has ben going out ever since so im glad he is home!!

I reached my 2nd and 3rd major goals, the 2nd being under 200pds and the 3rd weighing less than my husband by the time he gets home from iraq, well i weighed in today and i weigh 197 and he gets home saturday night!!  Im so happy right now and i have to say a little bit proud of myself!!

Well, I feel like Ive just gotten it up the butt with out the KY!!,  Im sorry that was very graphic but thats how im feeling sorta,  I had mentioned earlier in a post that i was buying a house, well i got our house packed up and had started buying furniture and stuff and the seller calls me last night and left me a message while i was at work saying that he had lied to me it was still currently inder contract with the realtor and they had found out that he was trying to sell it behind there backs and now they were going to sue him so he is now backing out of the deal, I was so mad i told him today on the phone that i would be sueing him for breach of contract which i wont get jack from that but its the principle of the matter this is the second time the jackass as backed out of a deal with me over that home, there wont be a third im done i really wanted that place bad but im over dealing with that jerk.  The good news is that my husband called today and he is officially out of iraq!!  he is in kuwait waiting for his flight back to the states and he should be home home by the first of next week so no matter how upset i am about the house i just have this overwhelmuing sense of excitement and happiness just knowing he is about to be back in my life again i will actually feel like a married woman again i cant wait!!  
Also im finally under 200 pds now my next goal was to weight less than my husband by the time he gets home, he weights 198 and i currently weight the same!! so hopefully i will get at least 1 more pound off before he gets here and i will have met my 2nd goal!! we will see!!

I havent been on here for awhile, I just havent had anytime.  I have been working alot which sucks cause i dont ever want to work!!  but i have also been packing stuff up, I have all the decor off the walls now and packed up for the big move.  When i sit and look at the walls now its kind of depressing!  My husband has injured his eye, this is the second time its been injured over there he was choppered out yesterday to Ballad to see a specialist, he has no vision in it right now I wish they would just send him home already!!  He did tell me though that they will fly out of iraq sept. 21st to kuwait then fly out of there the 23rd, he will have to then go to mississippi for 5 days for debriefing then he is all mine!!!!! blind in one eye or not ill take him any way i can get him!!!  I dont think he will be permanently blind the last time this happened he went blind in it but once the swelling went down his vision came back.  They told him then to baby that eye for the rest of his life, he hurt it the first time in the line of duty, this time he hurt it playing football of all things, i told him honey leave it to you to be in the middle of a war and you get hurt playing football no purple heart for that!!  Im just thankful this keeps his butt on base over there and hopefully it will keep it there till thy leave.
My ticker up there is off, or i am one day of surgery i weighed 291, today i weight 200 that to me is 91 pd loss so far but thats not what the ticker says.
Well i gotta get to bed. Good night John Boy!!

I was sitting on my couch yesterday when there was a knock at my door.  It was a delivery guy delivery me a dozen red roses and a balloon!!
They were from my husband in Iraq, he told me on the card how proud of me he was for losing the 80 pds and getting myself through school while he has been gone.  I of course immediately started bawling, he has only gotten me roses one other time in the 14 years we have been together and that was at the birth of our daughter almost 13 years ago.  So needless to say im just in pure shock that in the middle of all he is doing and going through over there he took the time to set this up, What a man!!!