RedStar
9/29/07
MY STORY (GLAD TO SHARE MY PICS WITH FRIENDS)
My weightloss story begins with my first diet in the 4th grade. I was under a doctor's care and was put on the drug Fastin and an 800 calorie a day diet. My weight went up and down as I grew up but I never reached a "normal" weight.
I learned a great deal about myself and emotional eating when I started going to Overeater's Anonymous back in the late 80's. At some point in about '92 or '93 it all kicked in. I began to take hold of my life. I got out of an unhappy marriage, started going out and meeting people, dancing, and felt I was being true to my authentic self. The pounds started dropping off. I went from 245 to 168. I was so happy! I new I was a musician and I started doing it for a living.....even in bars which I knew would be a disapointment to some of my family.
I did not ever gain all the weight back and more! I realize I'm in about a 1 percentile. But I have struggled like crazy. As they say....the hardest part isn't losing weight but KEEPING IT OFF. Keeping it off has been like torcher because I think genetics and other factors started to PRESS. My weight began to average around 185 for a while. Then there was a time when I went up to about 210, then struggled and lost to about 180 again. Then it seemed that my "set point" wanted to be at about 195. Up and down within this 35 lbs. and terrified that I was going to become the person I had left behind. I can knock the weight back down but only so far and I am weary of fighting being hungry ALL the time.
For years I didn't ever think that I could get weight loss surgery. Either the insurance wasn't right, the money wasn't right or my weight wasn't right. But I began to just start the process and see where it would go (asking, hoping and choosing to believe). Amazingly, things just began to come together.
So, that is very basically where I am. I am 206 lbs. and getting the band. I am hoping that maybe I'll be able to find some peace instead of constantly battling hunger. I'll keep ya'll up to date. Stay tuned.
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