Rosanne K.
Skake Mistake!
Feb 22, 2008
Okay, so later in the day I thought I'd make a protein shake, my first one since surgery. This one also has like 7 grams of fiber or something so I thought it could be helpful in the poop department. I added some powdered peanut butter and made it with skim milk for a total of 32 grams of YUMMY protein! I enjoyed it toooooooooo much! I drank the entire shake (about 1 1/2 cups) in a short amount of time!! I HAVE LEARNED MY LESSON!! I will pace myself better in the future!! I ended up nauseous and crying and scared I did internal damage! It took about 2 hours to wear off.
I guess overindulgence like this is partially the cause of my need for this surgery so here's my opportunity for behavior modification.
A Peace Beyond Understanding
Jan 24, 2008
Essentially, the only hassle will be an additional trip to Methodist to pay my coinsurance. I am proceeding as planned. Surgery is scheduled Feb 12th. Incidentally, for whatever reason, I somehow seem less concerned and more prepared than before. Oddly enough, that’s been the greatest outcome of this setback!
I had a thought I the other day. I worry about all sorts of things. What if something goes wrong in surgery? What if I have a leak? What if I’m not compliant and stop taking my vitamins five years from now? What if I can’t stand the extra skin? What if I crave things or want to eat emotionally? What if it doesn’t work for me and I don’t lose the weight? Or I lose it and gain it back? It finally struck me. How about I worry about the opposite outcomes? Not so much worry, but consider. What if I truly put this in God’s hands? What if this works and I actually end up a healthy weight? What if, for the first time in my life I am actually successful at this? What if I have the energy and desire to work out, be active, or play a sport? What if I start to care so much for myself and my body that I give it everything that it needs? What If I feel comfortable in my own skin and accept the flaws, maybe even choose to love them? What if I just choose to believe, hope for, and expect the best?
When this thought occurred to me I knew that this thought process probably came from God himself. See below.
Philippians 4:4-9 "4Always be joyful in the Lord! I’ll say it again: Be joyful! 5Let everyone know how considerate you are. The Lord is near. 6Never worry about anything. But in every situation let God know what you need in prayers and requests while giving thanks. 7Then God’s peace, which goes beyond anything we can imagine, will guard your thoughts and emotions through Christ Jesus. 8Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. 9Practice what you’ve learned and received from me, what you heard and saw me do. Then the God who gives this peace will be with you."
God is so good. This has become sort of a compass and a roadmap back to where I should be. I can stand on God's promise of peace and rest assured knowing it's all in His wonderful, skillful hands.