rodeogirl4life
(cont. from introduction)
Nov 22, 2009
Today another 7 years have gone by and I have bought another horse that I love, but now I weigh 231 and totally cannot ride him. It has been a blow to my self esteem over the years and has effected my marriage, my kids, my entire life. It's like I woke u; one day and looked in the mirror and had NO IDEA who was looking back at me. That may also be due to the fact that I have turned the dreaded 3-0. I know, I know some of you are saying 30?!?! You've got to be kidding? But it has been a hard year for me.I feel like I have lost so much time being sad and feeling sorry for myself. Honestly I don't know how I got here. I was always the life of the 'arty, the one everyone wanted to be around and res'ected because of my talent in the rodeo arena. Now I am just a "has been." I don't do anything. I have no friends. I just sit at home with my kids day in and day out...eating.
So the other day I googled WLS and soon it consumed my thoughts and weighed so heavy on my heart that I knew I had to do it. I knew I could not live this miserable, bitchy, isolated and lonely life that I had created for myself. I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and for once in 10 years have ho;e.
It is a scary journey I am on, but one I believe in with my heart and soul. If you have any advice, thoughts, encouraging comments, etc. I 'd LOVE to hear them and your story!!!!
