Nervous...

May 16, 2009

So, I would be lying ifI said that I wasnt nervous at all. My surgery is On Thursday and it is coming very quickly. I am just trying to focus on my presurgery diet so that i can lose a little weight befor the surgery...but i am having diffulculties dealing with the temptations...that too would be a lie if iI said that I was having a jolly good time cooking for my fiance and not being able to eat it myself.  I know that this will go away, but it is the BIG issue that i have been struggleing with right now. Ahhhhh!!!!!! Cant Thursday just come and be done and over with? I keep looking at before and after pictures, and am tr ying to figure out what iI will look like. I know that i am going to look really good, but owrry that my fiance will not be attracted to me anymore. He REALLY likes BIG girls...and He has been pretty hesitant about me getting the procedure so it made me really worried that he is not going to be attracted to me in the end. Just recently he is looking at the bigger picture...we want kids, and a long life together and in order for that to happen I have to be HEALTHY and he realizes that. I just want to be able to shake my fears of him being unhappy with my new body....

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