Exactly two weeks out......30 lbs gone!

Nov 21, 2011

You read it right, 30lbs gone forever! I thought I was stalled and that TOM would prevent me from reaching the 30 lb mark today but I did it. I know losing this easy isn't going to last forever but thank you Jesus! Today I am really starting to focus on calories, protein, and fluid. To keep the weight loss up I have to get these all balanced! I also have to add exercise in to the mix. My plan was to start today but the evil witch (TOM) is kicking my butt. The blood thinners that I had in the hospital does not help the mix! Ibuprofen is usually what stops my cramps but none of that! I will get through it though.

I have had several non-scale victories already! My seat belt doesn't press on my hip when driving, I had to retire one pair of PJ bottoms that were falling off of me, my formal gowns from last year are at least 1 size too big, I will have to buy new underwear so it stays up, my black diamond ring now fits!

People will ask if it is all worth it, I believe it is. Have the past two weeks sucked? Yes, kinda! Now that I can add some more food in  to allow my eating experience to feel more normal, it really does help me! I know that the further I get away from surgery the more normal I will feel. Food is an important part of my life but I feel with this tool, I will now have control. I am still fighting my food daemons, eating when I am bored, frustrated, sad, happy, etc. I had a bad day yesterday trying to deal with the pain from mother nature, and I wanted to turn towards food. I was sad while at dinner that I couldn't feed the pain away, and was also hating the fact that I got the surgery. I took a moment to step away in my head and realized that it was just me dealing with the pain.This will not be the first battle and it won't be the last.

All-in-all I know that I made the right decision for me. Having a weight problem my whole life, I had a problem I could not fix it on my own. I needed help like an addict needs help. I needed to be forced into looking at food differently!

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