8 Days and counting...

Jan 02, 2011

I've counted down the days and now we're in the single digits. I'm hoping this week goes by fast. I'm thinking it will. Due to the 'blizzard' we got here in VB they had to push one of my appts to 1/3 so now my schedule goes as follows: Pre-op class 1/3 Pre-op Appt with surgeon 1/5 and (finally) Surgery 1/10! I have been trying to pace myself while still crossing things off of my 'Foods to Eat Before Surgery' list. Luckily I was prescribed Vyvanse (the new and improved version of Adderall) and that has left me with little to no appetite so I made it through the holidays and actually lost about 7lbs. I've got some crazy things racing through my mind though. There's no way I'm getting cold feet but I do have pre-surgery jitters. I keep thinking: What if I look weird thin? Am I going to lose friends? What will my body look like? I hope I don't lose my boobs entirely. What if I get sick? Should I cut my hair if it starts to fall out? I'm even afraid to have sex with my fiancee because I don't want to get pregnant before my surgery...

I keep telling myself not to worry. That I'm prepared and I know what I'm getting into and I'm doing this to get healthy and end this shitty thing they call diabetes. No more shots or worrying about losing my eyesight or amputation when I'm older. I'm doing this to be around to see my grand-babies and to make my baby's childhood more enjoyable. I can't wait to take her on her first roller-coaster and not have to worry about fitting into the seat with her. And by taking care of myself showing her how to be a healthy kid, teen and (gulp) adult one day. I've been reading OH member's blogs and they're helping. Even the post surgery patients with complications say that they don't regret their decision. And I'm planning ahead and saving $1500 from this year's tax return so I have comfort in knowing that by next march I'll be healthy and have the money to fix some of the cosmetic things I may be uncomfortable with (mainly my breasts...I hate that that is bothering so much but honestly it really is. I can't help it.)

ASIDE FROM ALL OF THAT...I'm continuing my countdown. I've gotta squeeze in my mom's chicken n dumplins and a trip to Cracker Barrel before my liquid diet starts. And I will be taking my pre-op pics the night before surgery and doing a final weigh in at home. I'm crossing my fingers that I have the same luck my friends on here have had. TTYL!

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