4 days until surgery

Jul 06, 2013

So I have lost about 9 pounds on the pre op diet.  I am so frustrated that I have not lost more but the NUT told me with his pre op diet you only loose about 10 pounds at most.  I am so tired of meat meat meat meat meat.  I miss all of my carby type foods and I am so pissed off all of the time.  I am trying to not snap at my husband or child but I can't seem to help it.  Less than 30 carbs per day is really rough.  I know that I will eventually be allowed to have my favorite foods in moderation, but right now I am frustrated.  I am also scared.  What if when I get into the operating room they turn me away?  I realize that it is mostly an irrational worry and a deflection from what I am really worried about.  I guess I am really worried that I will never be able to eat again.  Food has been my comfort for so long and now that is being ripped away from me.  Admittedly I signed up for this shit, but I didn't anticipate just how difficult the emotional shit would be.  Logically I know that I don't need the donut or cookie, but I am so hungry for them.  UGH.  OK  before this bitch fest goes any further, I need to go and eat some meat now. 

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