stupid scale

Feb 23, 2011

I am an obsessive weigher. I weigh myself at the gym nearly every day. I dont know why I do it because its like masochism....and I only do it if there is nobody in the change room at the time either. Its not like they can see the number but still...

So I weighed myself this morning....and apparently I have gained 10lbs since Thursday.

Ok, I know that its IMPOSSIBLE!!! Even with my mini-binge on Saturday, there is no way that I gained 10lbs in 6 days. Seriously? Is that possible?? That IS impossible, right???

"Normal" people dont gain 10lbs in a whole year....let alone less than a week.

*sigh*

I know with my head that it is impossible. I was weighed on a different scale in Toronto last week so I am going to say that is the reason. I should have known that losing 6.5lbs in a week was ridiculous :(
But my head and my heart can never agree. My heart feels awful. Soooo dissappointed :(

I guess I will just have to wait until tomorrow night to find out for real what the damage is. It is very frustrating though. I was hoping to get a good 6 months out of my weight loss program before I started gaining. I was hoping to go right up until I started Optifast before my surgery.....

So disheartening. I was trying to be so positive which was making it easier to be patient while waiting. As long as I am losing, I dont really care how much.....as long as it isnt a gain. But come on!!!!! TEN POUNDS??????

Just trying to keep those old feelings of complete and utter failure at bay for a while until I get on my regular scale tomorrow night but still....its so hard.

I just want to cry :(

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