Does this outfit make me look crazy??

May 17, 2011

Sometimes when I read the message boards and see people who are getting calls for surgery dates in my area, I start to panic. It stresses me out, especially when people start talking about how LONG its going to take and how slow it is and how long they have been waiting....it just makes me anxious.

I am not jealous....I am truly happy for people who are getting their dates. I am genuinely excited for them and can't wait to hear about how it went and see how they are doing and know that it will be my turn soon. 

Personally,  I just want to wait calmly for my turn and here, people ahead of me in line are getting all worked up because they have to wait....which in turn makes me start to feel annoyed. Sounds a little like Walmart or the grocery store, doesnt it??

Maybe thats why I hate shopping on Saturdays. I cant take other people freaking out!

I guess I just worry that if all these people are getting their turn, then when will mine be?? There just seems to be more and more people in line ahead of me everyday and I think...where did these people come from? Are people cutting into line ahead of me?? It's that one irrational thought that says....when they finally get to me, something will happen and the doors will close and a big Wizard of Oz voice will sound out.."We're CLOSED!!!"

This last bit of the waiting is seriously making me crazy. I am glad I took the summer off to just enjoy some sunshine time with my daughter and relax!!!!

Now, if only the sun would come out....lol

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