I'm back!

Aug 16, 2011

It's been such a long time since I posted .

I have been so discouraged with the process that I decided to just stay away from anything that had to do with surgery and just try to put it completely out of my head. The waiting was literally driving me insane.

So I go a call 2 weeks ago from the nurse at the Weight Management Clinic and of course, my phone was off so I only got the message after.My heart was racing and I was actually so flustered I had to sit down for a minute just to calm myself down enough to manage to call her back. I got her voicemail and had to wait THE WHOLE WEEKEND until Monday!!!!

My honey and I were at the cottage when she called and it was only after I booked my final appointment with her that I could finally relax and enjoy my holiday!! I have my surgery class on Sept 14!! I am very excited again!!! The process is moving!!

I try to be patient but when it feels like the process is at a standstill, thats when I find it difficult to cope. I am much calmer now knowing that I have not been forgotten and I am indeed moving forward.

I am on holidays and have found it a bit diifcult to eat as I would normally. There is a lot more stuff around than I am used to at work. The fridge is right there! And the kids are home so there is more junk food too.....not that they eat a lof of it to begin with but the occasional bag of chips is within reach.....AND THE BAKING!!!! Zucchini bead is the current trend but soon it will be peach pie as peaches are coming into season. Before that it was strawberry everything or raspberry everything and rhubard crisp....not to mention that because I dont go into town for work eveyday, I am not going to the gym either. Granted I have been swimming and walking and hiking but not nearly enough in my opinion.

I am amazed that I have only gained 4 lbs. I guess maybe the constant movement of just being at home is better than sitting at my desk for 8 hours straight...

So now I am re-motivated and back on the site and thinking...OMG I dont know anything!! I am not prepared!!!

I think I am going to start a recipe binder and start making myself a little book of things that I will be able to eat immediately after. My Honey will be home with me anyways so I am not worried about having to cook....but I guess my number one biggest fear is the tendency to grab something when I am hungry rather than planning it out. I plan out everything for when I am at work, but I find I dont do that when I am at home. I will work on that between now and when I go back to work.

It's good to be back here. I forgot how supportive everyone really is and I guess I just got lost in my own frustrations.

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