A topic other than Cancer....

Aug 29, 2011

People are going to think I am such an anxious type person when they read these posts....but really, I only write when I need to vent or work something out in my head. I am really a pretty easy going person.

Maybe you read about my mom being diagnosed with cancer....but I am not ready to talk about it. I dont think I could handle the string of "thank you for your thoughts" notes I would have to write back to people telling me how sorry they are. It might sound viscious but I dont want people to say they are sorry. Nobody knows my mom, who she is or what she is like. It just seems like something people say when they don't know what to say. Its ok because I dont know what to say either...so lets just skip the whole thing.

I am sure this feeling will pass but its almost like I just want to keep it to myself for now. Maybe if I ignore it for a while then it will go away or fix itself on its own.

I realize this is called denial....and I also realze that its a stage I have to go through. So this is me, going through it.

What I am really writing to wonder about is how will this WLS thing possibly work???

I read blogs of other folks and see the advice given-which dont get me wrong, is great advice-but I dont know that it applies to me.

Number one advice to get ready for surgery is to cut stuff out of your diet now. Such as?
Cut out pop: I dont drink it now so I dont have to cut it out
Stop smoking: I dont smoke
Cut your carbs: I only eat starchy carbs once a day and I try to never eat a carb without a protein
Exercise more: I go to the gym 5 days a week and usually go for an hour walk on my lunch, plus aquafit classes 2x a week. (ok that one is only when I am at work and I am on holidays at the moment but that is my *normal* routine)
Drink water: I drink upwards of 3L a day
Cut out deep fried greasy foods: I never eat that crap. I have never had a funnel cake that I see people talking about- I dont even know what it is. I rarely eat fries and then usually give most away to my Honey. And yes I live in Canada and even on the border to Quebec but no, I have never in my life, eaten a poutine

So how did I get fat??? portion size I guess?? Maybe too many sweets??? I do have a sweet tooth but I rarely have desserts at home. Admittedly I have been baking a lot lately with the peaches in season. (peach pie!) but its not like I eat more than a slice. Its gone before I would get a second piece anyways!!! I have 5 kids, remember?? 3 of them are teenage boys! There is no such thing as leftovers in this house.

So, in order to be successful after surgery, I think it would be helpful to figure out exactly what got me here in the first place. I do have PCOS, but that cant be all of it. There has to be more

My diet is pretty good. I dont say its perfect by any means. I do slip up but I am pretty good about not having trigger foods around me. Chocolate chip cookies are simply not allowed because I *WILL* eat them. But in all honesty, I havent had a chocolate chip cookie in.....as a matter of fact I have no idea when the last time I had one was.

So over the next month, I really need to focus on this issue if I am to be really ready to rock my WLS later this fall. Sometimes I just get scared that I will be that 1 person in a million that the surgery just doesnt work for. Especially after reading about how hard some people found it to make changes to their diets......when I have already made those changes. Then I start to think maybe there is something ultimately wrong with me and its just not going to take...yanno??

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