Okay... so here's where I am...

Jul 07, 2009

So it's been about a month after about 5 years of research in interest that I've been going full force on this WLS adventure.  I wanted to share some info and goings on! 

My insurance does NOT cover any type of WLS.  When I called the company to see why they did not include this in their coverage, I was told that because it's CO, and we're the healthiest stare in the country, there is no reason to have this coverage.  Wow, that really sucked!  So then I had to find out my options... I am in the process of bankruptcy, so I can't get a loan... so that was out.  I AM going to school FT and could use my financial aide as a possible source, but remember I have a lot of bills already and I can't afford to take out a large school loan... so... what is a girl to do?

I googled free WLS and came up with a clinicaltrial.gov website, and for a moment I was thinking it might actually work out... but alas, no studies willing to pay for the surgeries, just willing to pay you for the after care... which is nice... but not what I need.

Then I decided to work the angle of fund raising and and getting people interested to donate or help me have the surgery!  So that's where I am about now... trying to hustle my way through!:)  Never give up!

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NEVER GIVE UP!

Jun 23, 2009

HI!

So, it's been a good little while since I signed up here.  It's so great to get so much support!  I feel like I'm not alone and I appreciate you all that have reached out!  This road has already been bumpy with insurance issues and no financing available for those with bad credit... lol or really bad credit like mine:)  I found one organization called Beliteweight.com and Slimband.com, they offer in-house financing for those with credit issues as long as you have a lump sum as a down payment.  I haven't heard a yes or a no on either side of that coin, but I'm excited about it!  Hopefully this will be my option.  They offer surgeons in both Mexico and the US... and the Doc I'm considering has a great record on this site, his name is Dr. Jose Rodriguez:  http://www.obesityhelp.com/morbidobesity/bariatric+surgeon+insurers+Jose+Rodriguez+jtr.html  I read all the testimonials and he has nothing but great responses.  I have even found a few members from this site that are his patients and they seem to be VERY satisfied and happy with their decision.   The surgery would take place in Juarez Mexico... but I'm not scared of that at all... I'm part Mexican and that is where my family is from!  So it'd be like going home:)  I've looked in to supplemental insurances and secondary insurances... grants, and ways to raise money for the surgery.  I think my next step is to chose one outlet and follow through.  It's just scary because what if I end up having a co-morbidity and lost the opportunity to be covered by one of those insurances?  That would suck!  So I'm walking on thin ice and looking at all of my options!  There is a faint chance that I might get to be a participant for a research panel studying long term effects of the REALIZE system... they in-plant you for free and all you have to do is report back, it's a 5 year study.  IF that happens I'll be the happiest girl in the world.  It's still between R-en-Y (GB) and a band... I really need to sit down with a surgeon to figure out what will be best for me... but which ever they recommend I will do.   This is going to be a long journey, but I've got my comfy shoes on for the long haul!   DON"T STOP BELIEVE'N!

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A WEEK OF EXAUSTION

Jun 20, 2009

This week has been on of little sleep, lots of learning and a steady pace of wonder.  I am looking for PCP's that support WLS and I have yet to find one that is accepting new patients... my insurance excludes WLS from it's coverage... now I'm looking in to secondary and supplemental insurance.  I wish I had like 15000 USD to just hand over to a surgeon and call it a day... lol if it was only that easy.  I'm still not sure what option would work best for me... I'm not afraid of surgery at all, and the lap band still has my attention.  I've even started looking at surgeons in India and Mexico... if I had 10000 I would be set there! :)  I'm meeting with an Aflac guy and have applied for loan with no success... I'm poor and have bad credit, looks like my only option is going to be insurance help.  I'm ready for a fight.
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THIS WEEK IS THE WEEK OF LEARNING

Jun 14, 2009

I've been here all day... my booty has become bigger and flatter with all the hours I've put in today and yesterday! lol... Well, I've got 2 seminars scheduled... I want to check out 2 clinics and MD's... we'll see how that goes.  1 is WED and the other is SAT this comming week.  I also have set in motion my plans for insurance if I am unable to qualify for a self pay option.  I am keeping an open mind about which procedure I want or need... I'd like to see what the Dr says and go from there.  Other than all that I've been doing more and more resarch on all the types of procedures and pre-surgical consults I need to get started on:)  Whew!  Time for bed!
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THAT DIDN'T TAKE LONG!

Jun 14, 2009

Okay, so now I have registered for a WLS seminar and I have non-stop researched for the last 2 days!  I have found more and more appeal as I've looked further in to the procedures... and after swimsuit shopping this evening I am READY to make a HUGE life change! This, I have decided is my newest goal... GET APPROVED! 

I found that my current insurance does not cover WLS at ALL... so I'm looking in to insurances that DO cover it.  I have found one called AIM and it looks like a good option... it's costly... but after crunching #'s it still will be cheaper than having the surgery paid for out of pocket.
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OKAY HERE WE GO!

Jun 14, 2009

Wow!  As I posted those pics it really makes me realize how ashamed I have been of my body.  I have pretty healthy ego... but my one weakness is my weight.  I look at my pics and see smiles that make  me frustrated... because I know they're lies.  As I go more and more in to this site I see so many people with the same smile.  The  before and after pics are what make it crystal clear.  In the pics of the smiles in the after pics... those are real.  I can see the essence of thier internal joy beaming from their smiles and not hidden by layers of guilt, sadness and embarrassment. 

For a long time now I have tried to live proudly as a plus size woman, but I just don't think that I'm the me I'm supposed to be.  It's great for some, but for others like myself... I know that I'm inside this body... I'm trapped and I'm freaking out inside with the feeling of being buried in my own skin.  I'm not 500 lbs... and I'm not going to try and pretend to know what people at that # are feeling... but for me, I feel like I'm already there.

No matter how much weight I lose, I will always be curvy and I will always have the plus size look... that I can live with, that I am proud to be... but  this blob of laziness I am all to ready to let go! 

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