Sophia Gettys
OKAY HERE WE GO!
Jun 14, 2009
Wow! As I posted those pics it really makes me realize how ashamed I have been of my body. I have pretty healthy ego... but my one weakness is my weight. I look at my pics and see smiles that make me frustrated... because I know they're lies. As I go more and more in to this site I see so many people with the same smile. The before and after pics are what make it crystal clear. In the pics of the smiles in the after pics... those are real. I can see the essence of thier internal joy beaming from their smiles and not hidden by layers of guilt, sadness and embarrassment.For a long time now I have tried to live proudly as a plus size woman, but I just don't think that I'm the me I'm supposed to be. It's great for some, but for others like myself... I know that I'm inside this body... I'm trapped and I'm freaking out inside with the feeling of being buried in my own skin. I'm not 500 lbs... and I'm not going to try and pretend to know what people at that # are feeling... but for me, I feel like I'm already there.
No matter how much weight I lose, I will always be curvy and I will always have the plus size look... that I can live with, that I am proud to be... but this blob of laziness I am all to ready to let go!
