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So, i'm almost a year and a 1/2 out, and I have no regrets.  I started out with a lower BMI than most (mid 30's), and I had about 90 pounds to lose.  I have lost about 60 of those pounds so far.  I have been at a stall since about 9 months out.  I did go from a size 22 to a size 12/14...I am whoah pleased with that.  I have been frustrated with my stall so to speak, but I think my body is just comfortable with where I am.  I am currently trying to kick start my weight loss to shed those last 30 pounds. 

It is totally my fault, of course, since i loathe drinking water (or pretty much anything for that matter), and I am totally allergic to exercise.  I keep saying I'm going to do it, but I don't.  I just try not to beat myself up about it.  I was a self-pay, and I would pay that money all over again because, besides losing the weight, I lost the self loathing that I had each and every day for so many years.  I was in such a deep depression about my weight.  Some days it was all i could do to get out of bed.  I no longer have that feeling.  That $12,500 was a small price to pay to start loving myself again.

I love my baby belly.  I love my new weight.  I just owe it to myself to see this journey to the end...the end is my goal weight of 145 pounds. 

Well, i'm 8 months out and starting to struggle.  I have lost approximately 52 lbs and tons of inches - which I am very proud of.  Why do I feel so defeated?  I have about 30-40 lbs left to go, and I know it will come off slow.  I just can't get my diet right.  carbs or no carbs?  i can't live without them.  Hell, if I could do that, I could have just been an Atkins for life guru.  I hate drinking water (or pretty much anything) because I'm simply not a drinker.  I have been doing it lately, though.  I just feel shitty today.

I am grateful for the weight loss....don't get me wrong.  I feel like a bitch for being greedy and wanting more.  I have gotten off of my ass and started working out....UGH! 

I will do better.  I must do better.  I spent $12,500 for this tool.  I have to make it work. 

I am 6 months out as of yesterday, and I am down 44lbs and tons of inches.  I have gone from a size 22 to a size 16 in pants (with the occasional size 14) and from size 18/20 tops to a size 14/16.  I am happy with my weight loss, and I don't regret my surgery one bit.  

It hasn't been a bed of roses.  I have had my share of foamies, stalls, and overeating pains, but I am still getting used to my new tummy.  The good outweighs the bad any day...hands down.  

That's all for now.  Just wanted to give a little update.

Thanks for all of your love and support!

Well, it's a new year, and I am already 17 lbs lighter!  How's that for a New Year's Resolution?  Every year I make a promise to myself that "this will be the year that I will drop the weight."   I can finally hold my head up high and say that this will truly be the year!!!  

I may even be in a bathing suit by summer!!   WOW!!  

THIS WILL BE OUR YEAR!!!! 

As many of you know, I made it through surgery just fine.  I was so surprised at how easy it really was.  Thank you, God!

I am 6 days out, and my weight loss is fluctuating between 5 and 7 lbs.  I'm okay with that.  Liquid diet sucks and I can't get in all of my water or protein.  It's only the 1st week, so I'm not beating myself up about it. 

My new friends came to visit me in the hospital, and I was so super excited!  Thanks celticfaery, mouber, and sadsushi.  You made my surgery day very enjoyable.  

A BIG SPECIAL THANKS GOES TO STACEYS FOR BEING MY ANGEL!!!!

More to come.......

My surgery is scheduled for in the morning.  I am scared as hell about it.  I hope I don't die.  That would be awesome.  

I've never had surgery before and I am fo sho shakin' in my boots.

I do look forward to sitting on the losers bench. 

MAKE ROOM FOR ME!!!  SAY A PRAYER AND LIGHT A CANDLE!!

I am still having my surgery on Dec 5th....but I am not having the lap band surgery.  I have decided to go with the sleeve instead.  I think it is the right choice for me.

I go for my pre-op tomorrow at Vista!  My surgery is set for December 5th, and I am so excited!  Dr. Bellanger is leaving on December 7th, so I am just slipping in under the wire.  LSU or some other big conglomo bought Vista, so he and Dr. Hargroder are moving to a new location and a new hospital.

What will I be able to eat?  Will it hurt?  I'm so nervous and excited at the same time!  What shoudl I expect the day of and day after surgery???

YIKES!!  IT'S REALLY GONNA HAPPEN!

Keep your fingers crossed and say a little prayer!

I am psyched about my surgery!  I go in the a.m. for my psych eval and blood work...but...get this... I get a call yesterday from Dr. Bellanger's office saying that I need to have my surgery before Dec 4th - ish because he is changing offices.  Apparently, and correct me if I'm wrong, LSU bought out Vista Medical Center where he does the surgery.  They told me that he is going to a different facility, and, because I am self-pay, the cost of the surgery is probably going up.

Anyone heard anything about this???  WTF!!!!

I just went for my consult today with Dr. Drake Bellanger.  I have 80 lbs to lose, and I am torn between the lap band and the gastric sleeve.  Please feel freet to give me your opinions and suggestions.  I am All EARS!!  (well, not all ears...or else I wouldn't need the surgery, huh??)