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So.....  July 2012!  I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I've posted on here.....  I look awesome, physically I feel great, but mentally I feel like I'm fighting myself daily....  Now that food is not my vice, I seem to struggle with new "bad" habits, or possible addictions.  Everything I do I keep doing it to the EXTREME.  For example, I will go overboard shopping and spending my paycheck irresponsibly, or I start drinking alcohol (I hated the taste of alcohol, before surgery)  I'm really struggling with getting myself right....  If it's not those things I over-do it with caffeine, to where I have like 2 or 3 energy drinks, or start taking caffeine tablets.....  I think it's time I go see someone about this.  Even though the surgery has been the best thing I've ever done in my life, my mind keeps playing games with me... Psychologically I'm still a mess.....

So it's been a minute since I've posted on here.  I'm down 90 lbs.  It's so hard to believe.  I feel great (minus the hair loss) I get daily compliments from all of my patients at work. It's awesome.  The only thing I've really been struggling with is my emotions.  I feel like a basketcase sometimes.  It's so weird!  I'm in a size 16/18 from a size 24/26.  It's crazy.  I'm so glad that I decided to have this surgery.  It;s one of the best decisions I've made in my life. I just hope to get over this hair loss and mental craziness...  I've started to see a therapist last week, so, hopefully she'll help me get back on track!

So I am home now, had my RNY done on Tuesday the 18th. I feel so tired and weak.  I've been sipping on water and so far today I've gotten 3 protein shakes in (75gm) and about 37oz liquid and I got my 2 vitamins and prilosec down.  That prilosec is very important!  My stomach was very queasy this AM, but I took the prilosec 1st thing when I woke up and waited about 30mins before eating, and my tummy has felt fine all day.  I wish I didn't feel so light-headed and dizzy, I don't have that much pain, other than the gas, but I feel so weak.

Wow, so In 4 days I'll be having surgery.  The official date is May 18th, I am so excited, but so scared too.  I've never really had surgery before.  I pray to God I'm making the right decision, and everything turns out well for me!

I finally got my first appointment set with my surgeon.  I am both so nervous and so excited at the same time.  I have struggled with my weight for most of my life.  When I was a teenager I was a size 10-12 and I thought I was sooo fat.  LOL!  I got married the 1st time when I was 20, I was a size 14.  13 years, 3 kids, a divorce and getting remarried later I am a size 24.  I consider myself a pretty active "big girl"  I work 40+ hours a week, clean house, cook, do laundry on the weekends, clean house the whole 9, but I am always so tired!  I have started having problems with my knees, but otherwise I am pretty healthy....

Well this is my 1st post.  I found this website last week and have been completely addicted!  I hope to find some great information and some good friends from this site.