Bonnie R.

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I haven't lost weight in a couple of months.  It's time for me to start exercising.  I also go through times of extreme gassiness and bloating.  One always knows if I'm going through this as the candle is lit in the family room.  Today is one of those days. I'd imagine it is from the Indian food I ate at my friend's birthday party today (along with a few bites of cake).  

I started on the best probiotic money could buy to try and curb the ongoing gas.  I tried it for a few days and got a yeast infection.  Yes, this would seem not to follow logic so may be a coincidence.  I stopped taking it while I went on topical meds for the infection. A few weeks later I tried the probiotic and again got the same symptoms--CRAZY!  No explanation on why this would be and of course as I've said totally against logic and medical science. I plan to try it one more time to test it again.  If the probiotic doesn't work, I will have to do an elimination diet.  I'm lazy so the idea of this doesn't make me happy.  

It's to the point now where I can see my belly protruding.  It almost looks like I've gained weight--but I haven't.  I hope to report a decrease in gas and bloating next time I post. 

I have not lost a pound in 3 weeks.  I have been eating terrible amounts of candy etc and need to get back on track.  I'm so mad! I did so great after my surgery--really deciding I didn't need sugar or white flour type carbs.  Now I've eaten so many I feel like I've gone back to my old ways.  Today I did much better.  Tomorrow I will do even better. Each day needs to be a gain.  I need to feel in control of the carbs again or everything seems to fall apart.  I hope to report a weight loss in a couple weeks. 

As an adult I never really got into Halloween.  A few years ago I did wear a "costume" of a red shirt and black pants and went with a friend in the same outfit. We were twins.

This year was fantastic! We threw a great party and I was the Bride of Frankenstein.  I wore my wedding dress from over 7 years ago and it was actually a bit too big!  I went totally nuts with a full face of makeup and I did my own hair to look like the original Bride.  What fun!  I think each Halloween I will enjoy going all out with my costume.

On a sad note, 5 of my long time friends left very early from the party so they could go out to a bar drinking.  I can't help being hurt by this.  One of the women has twins and had a babysitter so she wanted to "take full advantage" of the free time.  If her goal was to get drunk she could have done that here or left the party at a little later time.  I am noticing my life, my friends, everything is changing.  This is life and I must accept not everyone will be my close friend and my close friends won't be close forever. 

 7 1/2 years ago I married a wonderful man.  I was the thinnest I had been in my adult life after loosing 80 lbs.  Soon after we were married I began putting weight back.  

I'm so happy to report I have lost 90 lbs and I'm back to "wedding weight," the unattainable illusive weight I thought I'd never reach again!

The really great thing?  This time I'm going even lower and will attain a normal weight.  AND the really really great thing?  I'm going to keep it off.  Thank you to my DS.

I'm about 5 1/2 months out now.  Generally I feel pretty darn great but lately I've been experiencing an excess amount of gas. I'm trying to figure out where this comes from.  I've started on a pro-biotic which I hope straightens things out.  I've also started to really monitor what I am eating so I can figure out what gives me more gas.  Very hard because many of my favorite things can sometimes give people gas--including coffee, artificial sweetener and protein drinks.  Not to mention dairy products.

So before I give up anything, I want to try the pro-biotic.  Consensus on the board is build up to 4 a day and then when my gas is under control (cross fingers) back down to 1-2 a day. I decided to go on what people deem the best--Garden of Life Primal Defense.  Expensive but will be well worth it if it works.

Tomorrow is a big day for me.  I, along with 10 other women in CT, have been awarded the Ella Grasso Women's Leadership Award.  So wonderful to be recognized for the hard work I've put into the Democratic Party and its values the last 5 years.  Dave, my parents and several friends are going with me to the ceremony in support.  YAY!

Yesterday was a big day too!  Terria, Jim, Dave and myself went to NYC for the day.  We left on a 9am train and didn't get home until after 8pm.  We walked a lot, went on a mystery tour called Accomplice, had lunch with Kyle, etc.  I did not eat or drink enough and when I did eat, had some out of the ordinary items--including one munchkin. ONE.

I started to get sick at dinner.  Felt overly tired and almost dizzy with exhaustion. By the time we were home I was in excruciating pain. It was horrible.  Thought it was gas, but I don't think so now.  I started throwing up and couldn't keep liquids down.  Decided I was probably dehydrated and so went to Milford Hospital to get an IV with saline.  Got there at 10pm and by 12midnight had not been seen.  I dosed off on Dave's shoulder and  when I woke at midnight felt less pain.  Decided to try and drink again and was able to hold it down.  Came home without being seen.  I am fine-ish today, able to hold everything down but have been so tired all day.  I think it was a combination of dehydration, not eating enough, being over tired and yes, eating that stupid crappy munchkin.  

Next week will be 5 months since my surgery.  Hard to believe and so many changes!  I'm now 75 pounds down and feeling great.  I am wearing size 16 clothes.  A regular size 16!!!! I'm officially never buying plus sized clothing again.  Each time I receive an email from Macy's or some such retail outlet, they tell me they are having sales on plus sized clothing!  So funny how quickly life can change--even small things like emails from Macy's.

 I've been feeling sexy and young and pretty.  The way I should feel.  

I think it is time for me to stop ticking back the clock from surgery.  I feel great and can't believe I'm 71 lbs. down!  I look good too.  Cracks me up to see the eyes following me as I walk through stores and such.  Everyone is more helpful.

I've been back from vacation for a week and just now feel like I'm catching up on sleep etc.  I still am not perfectly back on a regular schedule and plan to sit down with my vites tomorrow and set everything up for next week.  I am always nervous about non-compliance and need to realize I can strive for perfection and settle for excellent.  Jeez, we're hardest on ourselves.

I ate some weird stuff tonight and seem to be paying the price.  My stomach hasn't done cartwheels like this since I was first on solid food after surgery.  I have a feeling tonight is going to be a long night.

Part of my problem with sleeping is the mid-night trips to the toilet and 4 out of 7 nights I'm running downstairs for food with that horrible hunger pain I get.  Terrible.  Really interrupts a good night's sleep.

I missed blogging for a week because I've been away on the most extraordinary vacation!  I went with Darma, EN and Rena for a DSers weekend in Montana.  EN is from there so she had a lot of great places to take us.  We went to hot springs (I went in NAKED).  Wow was that incredibly freeing.  I've never seen my stomach and boobs float like that. ha!  Bozeman is a great college/tourist town with lots of fun shops.  We saw the most wonderful scenery and drove all over creation.  What a great trip with the girls.  

Dave then flew out and joined me for the following week and we went to Yellowstone!  Amazing!  Awesome!  I hope everyone can make the trek there.  It will blow your mind.  I was there and looking back at the pictures I can't believe how beautiful it is!  We spent 3.5 days there and saw as much as we could cram in--we also drove down to the Grand Tetons and Jackson Hole WY.  Our favorite part of the trip was the float trip we took through the Grand Tetons.  I even attempted to get over my fear of heights and went up to 10,400 feet in a tram on one of the mountains.  WOW!  The views were inspiring and I managed to stay upright :).

I have no idea how much I weigh at the moment.  I think I'll wait a few days before I weigh myself.  I ate terribly while away.  Ice cream, pastries and probably not enough protein or liquids.  I didn't take all my vites either.  I'm glad to be back on schedule and home where it is easier to do everything I need to do.  I think I've lost weight actually, just not sure how much.

I've had a terrific week and will remember this trip for the rest of my life.  Darma and I travel well together--have similar interests and eat on the same clock. We both are in good moods most of the time and I would travel with her again in a heartbeat.  In fact, we have Miami to look forward to in February.  

In 15 weeks I have lost 64 lbs and have made it half way to my arbitrary goal of 170.  I feel good.  Keeping up with my vitamins although I do miss a dose or two during the week.  I am trying to be better and want to never miss a dose.

I feel good!  I have eaten a few things I shouldn't through the summer parties we've thrown.  It is easier to comply during the week when there are no tempting cakes and things around.  

All else is good. Going to Montana in less then 2 weeks and really looking forward to getting around easily and exploring that part of the country! 

Saw a friend I haven't seen since Christmas and she sent me an email afterwards saying she was "shocked by how small I was." and then in another sentance said "you are shocking to see." Kind of cracked me up.  

YAY!  I am officially 60 lbs down this morning!  I now weight 238.  Seems hard to believe in such a short period of time. My mind is still adjusting to the change in the mirror.  4 more lbs and I'm half way to my (arbitrary) goal of 170.

We had a graduation party for my nephew yesterday and I decided to eat some of the red velvet cake we had for him.  Oh dear.  I've been up for over 2 hours in the wee morning hours cursing my decision.  I even had to take a shower to clean up.  Yikes.  Seems strange actually since I ate chocolate cake 2 weeks ago and had no issues at all except a small, very small amount of gas.  

Life is good.  I feel good.  Thanks for coming on my journey!