sad day to vent

Dec 27, 2010

i'm starting to regret having had this surgery.  i knew what was going to happen going into this life changing experience, but didn't expect to feel regretful.  it's so frustrating to not be able to eat like i used to.  i'm not cooking like i used to (food doesn't sound good anymore) unable to eat breads, stuffing, yogurts, etc.... my husband worries about me not eating like i used to, but i think he's more worried about my mental health (lol).  last night i craved ice cream so bad, and all i kept thinking to myself is that I chose to do this, i will overcome these feelings.  it's easier said than done. i'm afraid to eat certain foods due to the fact of the slow moving pace i feel going down my throat.  that is so uncomfortable.  then having to feel the rumbling in my stomach after eating.  feels like a rat is moving in my intestines.  oh, then the gas and diarrhea.  smells terrible and sounds like a frog has jumped out of my butt to burp...today is a day i just want to cry and wallow in my sorrows.  i'm sure it'll get better...but right now it sucks.

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