Pitiful!!!!!!

Dec 01, 2011

Since my last post in March, I found out afterwards that I was pregnant....operative word WAS...unfortunately I had a 2nd trimester miscarriage in my 5th month of pregnancy....I lost my little girl !!!! Then about the 3 weeks later...some more devastation - MY LAP BAND FAILED....Dr. Cahill was proud of of the fact that I lost over 100 pounds but unfortunately I had to get it removed.  After I lost the baby I had not been able to digest solid foods for almost 3 weeks.  I was getting weak and could barely drink any liquids.  I mean it literally took me 30 minutes to drink a 1/2 cup of water.  At this point I'm asking GOD why...then as a result of the having the band removed...I end up having a HUGE abscess where the port used to be so I had be hospitalized again for the 3rd time in 3 months...at this point I'm like WTF?!?!?!?!

So now I'm debating on having the gastric sleeve which would be considered REVISION due to band failure.  I'm so afraid to gain my weight back...I'm keep fluctuation between 10 & 15 pounds...up and down up and down....but I am still able to get into some size 16 and most 18 (some are sagging in th butt)...if they were to make a size 17..it would be perfect.

If you happened to stop by my page please realize that I haven't given up hope...and I am strongly considering getting the revision.  I don't know if I will ever be able to have anymore children....but what I DO KNOW is that I don't want to gain the weight back again.  I need help because I'm an emotional eater and after what I've been through I feel as though I could eat a whole entire cow - but I stop myself from going overboard and staying focus on my saucer full of food..  2012 will be my year to make my decision to be extra FABULOUS and FORTY...

Sharon

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