SUNRAY
4mo Post Op...it just keeps getting better every day ^_^
Jul 16, 2009
July 16th...4mos to the day since surgery. 9mos since I began this journey by attending orientation at Kaiser Richmond. 48lbs gone since surgery for a total of 76.9lbs. Those are the 'facts'...but this journey has become more about how I feel, what I think, what I do. I realize now how naive I was at the beginning...I really didn't have a clue what my decision to have WLS really meant. All I knew was I was tired of being fat, I couldn't do anything about it on 'my own' and that I could get Kaiser to help me 'fix' me.I have a friend going thru surgery as I write this...same doctor, same hospital. Ha! We even share the same name...how 'out there' is that? LOL There is so much I want to share with her; but then, her 'ride' could be so different than mine! I have learned so much (especially from the Cali forum) but still I remain so much the 'newbie'. Each day has it's own new discovery and it's not always connected to food: my back no longer aches, I've discovered my tailbone again, the 100+degree heat is actually tolerable, I enjoy going places. Learning the 'ways of the pouch': when am I really hungry, when am I full, wondering what a new introduced food will taste like..the same as before or has it 'evolved'. And of course, at 4mos out...will I loose my hair??!!!
I do admit there are things I miss from the old life: having more variety in a meal rather than just protein (just not enough room to get a chicken tender, 1/4 potato and 1/2cup veggie in), being able to 'just go' rather than have to figure out if a restaurant will have something I can eat, my junk food desserts, and the over all "I can get what ever I want" and not worry about the consequences.
So far my pouch has tolerated anything I've tried..which can be a 'curse' in its own way. I have tried a couple of 'forbidden' foods/snacks...just to see 'what if' and came out unscathed. But, oh, what the head wants to do with that bit of information! Just as before surgery, I am fighting daily the battle with food and emotional eating. All of the major battles I have won; it is the small, unexpected 'burbs' that throw me the curve. Not enough time to prepare a proper meal, too tired to prepare a proper meal, I allowed something or someone to knock me 'off balance', and the worst, being too hard on myself.
While this ride and this journey have highs and lows, I can confidently repeat I would definitely make the same decision all over again. And even tho I had no idea what I was getting myself into exactly, I certainly am enjoying the adventure so far! And I can only wait in anticipation for what the next leg of the journey brings me.
Nancy
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About Me
Sacramento, CA
Location
40.2
BMI
Surgery
03/16/2009
Surgery Date
Feb 11, 2009
Member Since
