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Ok so I have been stuck for over a month at 178, but I am ok with it. I am wearing a size 10 or 12 and I actually look good in clothes. I have had some personal problems lately and I think it has affected my eating choices. One of my closest friends passed away and another friend needs a liver transplant and is being denied due to cardiac issues. And as of today, my son's grandmother (my ex-mother in law) is on hospice and probably won't make it till the weekend. There is no animosity between us and we are still friends. I grew up in a jewish household and ran from it when I was old enough. Well my new obsession is Matzoh w/ I can't believ it's not butter on it. It would probably be ok if I only ate on, but I am edging toward 2-4 pieces a day. I walk 2 miles a day and exercise on my treadmill & bike @ home, but it is kind of a futile effort, I excersise it off, then I put it in my mouth???
I am going to start cutting back as of tomorrow & I will increase my fluid intake & I will hopefully get back on the losing track.
Well gotta go for now

I'm down to 180 Lbs!!!

It's been awhile since I have updated. Well my son got married on 2/9/08 and the wedding turned out beautiful. My gown was a size 16, but on the daY of the wedding it was loose. I am officially 183lbs., I weighed last week at 181.6, but I think it was a fluke and I am not even gonna count that. I ate about 7 prunes the night before and I had a massive BM (too much info), so I think it was a water shift and I am not counting it. I have also had the flu and the friday before the wedding I ended up in the ER & now have Diverticulitis. The dr put me on 2 antibiotics, and gave me my food restrictions and it's been ok since. I was eating alot of cashews for protein when I couldxn't eat and I guess I flared it up myself. It was just that no one ever told me I had diverticulosis, or I would have not eaten the nuts. It showed up on a scan I had done last year,but the dr's never bothered to mention it to me.Well I am gonna try to upload some wedding pics.

Today is a GREAT day[-no matter what else happens during the day-today I have entered ONDERLAND. And it is a beautiful land to be in. It is actually 46degrees here in Spring Hill Florida-which doesn't happen very often, and during the night it got down to 26 degrees, but to me it is the most beautiful day EVER cause I am living it in ONDERLAND. No more #2 on the left side of the scale!!!!!!  YEY!!!!!!!

So this is what I do on New Years Eve, I am sitting at my computer.I really don't like to go out on New Years, too many drunk lunatics on the road.Any way, I was doing great until Xmas- I was down to 201.5, and had  1 1/2 lbs to onderland, and then I guess I ate the wrong things-Not too much, but I guess the wrong things and I woke up 12/26 and I was 203.4-I WAS NOT A HAPPY CAMPER!!!!!, well as of this am I am back down to 201, and I am hoping I will be in wonderland by the end of next week.  My sons wedding is 2/9/08 and I haven't gotten a dress yet(I have to wear a gown) I tried on a 16 and it was loose but a 14 was too tight-I am probably gonna wait till the end of January before I buy something. Something weird though- My baby boy is 22 years old-before I got pregnant I wore a size 8 shoe-progressively with the weight I was up to a size 10-I bought a pair of shoes for xmas and they were an 8 1/2 W. I was shocked. my pants are still a 16w but are loose on my butt, and my blouses are now XL- I can actually shop in Old Navy and stores where there is no Large women's Dept. That was a big triumph for me. I bought a sweater at Old Navy today-(even though I don't want to buy clothes unless I need them)-just because I could buy it. I also have some before& after pics @ OFOTO.com that I haven't figured out how to put on here yet and I cannot believe what I actually looked like-I was miserable & FAT-I love my RNY. Well I hope everyone has a safe,healthy,happy & thinner New year, and I'll write again from Onderland.

So I know I haven't written for awhile, but life has been just a little hectic. I have started back to work part time and I still have to go to physical therapy 3x a week. My son is getting married 2/9/08 and I am busy with that.But the good news is I am down to 209 lbs. So if you count from the 256 I was on my last visit to Dr Jawad I am officially down 47lbs. I guess that is good fo almost 3 months out. Sometimes it bums me because I read blogs where people are down alot more than that, but when I read farther they started out heavier than me. So we are losing at the same rate percentage wise. It feels good when people see me & tell me I look great. It makes me want to shout." I must have really looked like sh*t before then". I have the flu and I feel miserable right now, but I wanted to get a post in. See you when I feel better.

Weight loss update. 

  Woo Hoo!!

 

 

Ok so I got on the scale this am and it said 221- I had to look at it again- 221-I can't remember the last time it said that!!! So then I went in the closet and pulled out a 1x top and a 20W top ( I am still large breasted. The 20W top fit and was a little loose. The 1x got on and I could button up to my boobs. This was such a great feeling. So I put on the 20w top with my 18-20 straight leg jeans and I stopped at work. Damn everyone was saying how great I looked. IT FELT SO FANTASTIC!!!! I also went to Sweet Tomatoes (Salad  Buffet Restaraunt) for lunch today as I can eat salads again. I used to have a bowl  or 2 of soup - 2 plates piled high w/ salad, a plate of pasta , muffins,and their pizza foccacia bread, to top off with a large bowl of soft serve swirl  icecream for desert. ( and of course sweet tea). Today I had a small plate of wonton chicken salad w/ xtra chicken, a few spoonfuls of low fat vegetable bean soup, and some brocoli w/ rainsins, nuts and bleu cheese. IT was DELICIOUS and I was VERY full. I also went to a costume party saturday night and I pulled out me 1/2 devil 1/2 angel costume from 2 years ago. Back then it was tight and I had to wear leggings underneath. Saturday I wore it with just stockings and I had to make a belt for it because it was loose.
I LOVE MY RNY !!!!!