Lisa S.
My story is a long and boring story! lol
Actually, I have always fought with my weight. I've never really been thin. I've always been very active, but I guess my problem is more my choice in foods. I'm a very picky eater. I've considered this surgery for a very long time, and now the time has come that I am able to actually do it. I guess the thing that really pushed me to get this surgery was a divorce. I was in a realationship that was very unhealthy. Not only did my husband make comments about my weight, but his family made even more hateful comments. It drove me into a deep depression, and the more I was teased or taunted about my weight, the harder the struggle was to get it off. I really believed for a long time that the onlly value in a person was that value of the number on a scale. It's been a year and a half since my divorce, and I'm at a point where I can do this and feel that it is the right decision for me.
I am so tired of my weight being an issue almost everywhere I turn. I travel often for work, and getting on a plane is so embarrassing. I do not have to have an extender, but the belt barely fits around me, and I know I spill over into the other seat. How humiliating! I also was not allowed on a ride at a theme park, because the seat belt would not fit. Not only that, but just trying to lug my luggage around while traveling, is almost unbearable. I get winded so easily.
I cannot wait until people start to look at me as a person, instead of the "fat chick" I have missed on so many opportunities to have my picture taken with friends/family, because I hate looking at myself in pictures. I don't feel like the person that is in that picture. A mirror has the same effect! bleh! I'll be so happy to look in a mirror or look at a picture and say, "Yeah, I recognize that girl! She's hot!" lol
My surgery as of this post is a week out! I'm so excited, but at the same time, a nervous wreck. I hope I can find some new friends here, on this journey. Don't get me wrong, I have the best of friends, but they cannot relate to this journey at all. I'd like to share with someone who gets it!
I wish all of you reading this only the best of luck!
