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Feeling a little down today. Wishing these pounds would disappear a lot quicker. I must admit I did not go to the gym one day last week. I've been lazy since I've been home from vacation. But I'm still not eating anything. I mean I'm eating but 2 bites of food 3x a day pounds should be melting off. I'm 5 weeks out I have a total 45 pounds lost, but I lost 26 of those before I even had the surgery. Only 19 since the surgery. I feel I should be a lot further. I did try on a pair of pants today. It was a sz 6 of lane bryant right fit jeans. Its an equivalent of a sz 24. That shocked me being that I havent been in a size 24 in 7 years. But I was at goodwill b/c I was too embarassed to go to a regular store still. In the back of my mind I'm thinking the previous owner must have stretched them out. I know I need to stop being negative.

I had my 4 week post-op appointment yesterday! I stepped on the scale and my weight actually started with the number 2!!! I am no longer 300 lbs or more! Thank God for that. I haven't had any problems so I was cleared to get off soft foods. I can now eat any foods. I'm still struggling to get all my liquids and protein in, but I know in time that will come. I've got 98 more pounds to go!

wow! a lot has changed in just 2 weeks. All Thanks and Praise be to God for a complication free surgery on 6/28/10. God is good! I was so scared going in. However, I did have to stay an extra day and get more x-rays because I was throwing up one night and couldn't keep anything down. Everything was fine and in good working order. So I went in Monday and was released that thursday. It wasn't that bad. I wasn't really prepared for the pain though. I had my son by c-section 2 years ago, and I certainly forgot how painful abdominal surgery can be. Liquid hydrocodone was my BEST friend for a good week.  So I get home and the couch has been my new resting place since. It has been kind of rough mentally watching others around me chow down on all the foods I love like sweets, pizza, chinese food---you know all the junk that got me to my heaviest weight. I thought I would have broke down and maybe even cried by now, but being able to be even one size smaller has kept me smiling thru the pain! So at my pre-op appointment I was 343 pounds! OMG So I had to STOP eating and go on a liquid diet. Not only to shrink the liver but to get my BMI under 60. The hospital where my surgeon performs will not allow bypass surgery on someone with a BMI over 60. So I started at 62.5. I needed to lose at least 16 pounds. I weighed in at 317 on surgery day so I actually lost 26 pounds! yaaaay. I was mad to see at my 1 week post-op appointment I was still 317. I'm like I haven't eaten anything. My doc and nurse say this is normal though. Since I have been home I have had problems overeating and throwing up. Its crazy how little I can eat now. I'm looking at the food and I want to devour it in 30 seconds! But my body won't let me. One week after my post-op appointment which is 2 weeks out of surgery I am now 306! So 37 pounds total so far. I took a picture of my self today after working out at the YMCA and couldn't believe I had let myself get to 343 pounds. How did I get there? How come I couldn't keep the motivation to lose the weight in the past? What do I really look like at 300 lbs? Well the good news is pretty soon I won't be 300 pounds any more and I'll be asking new questions like what roller coaster should I get on? Should I buy these skinny jeans in black or blue? Should I get a one-piece or a bikini? LOL I 'm sure I'll probably always need a one piece!   

Keep me in your prayers everyone! Today is surgery day!

I finally got approval from ins co. my date is monday june 28...4 days after my wedding anniversary. so june 2010....fathers's day, hubby b-day, wedding aniversary, gastric bypass surgery....what a month!!!!

Wow I really feel like im in a whirlwind right now. I feel like my life is in the "spin cycle" I have so much going on and im just ready for things to slow down. I am so thankful for God's strength and peace of mind. I'm battling one of the hardest things I have ever had to face, but I will  continue to keep the faith. I am still awaiting ins approval-3 mos med supervised diet.  April will be my 3rd month of supervised dieting. So let's pray after my appt in april, everything will be a GO! I am definitely ready for some new changes!!!!!

@ 330 lbs I'm tired of all the marks left behind on my stomach because my jeans are too tight, i'm tired of all eyes on me when i go out to eat, i'm tired of skinny girls compalining about the "5" pounds they need to lose, i'm tired of all the rips in my jeans because my thighs rub together, i'm tired of the way plus size shirts are made and all the safety pins i have to use to pin up shirts-just because i wear a 3x doesn't mean i'm a DDD cup! i'm tired of feeling like im gonna die when i walk up two flights of steps at work every day. i'm tired of having to prove that i have attempted to lose weight before i can be approved to lose weight-i've been overweight since birth-its almost an insult that i have to PROVE to you i "tried" to lose weight before. i'm tired of having to walk thru forever 21 to get to lane bryant. i'm tired of the "0 grams trans fat" label on krispy kreme donuts box-i mean come on! sorry i'm just tired today!!!!

Wow, I have so many goals. My weight has held me back from so many things. I'm ready for some changes. I was thinking back to the last time i went to an amusement park. I was so embarassed. I stood in line for about an hour, only to have 2 ride guys try to stuff me in the seat to no avail. I had to get down and leave the ride. I never wanna feel that way again!!!