tracieb547
Decisions
Mar 28, 2010
I came to some definite decisions this past Friday. For years I have wanted weightloss surgery. After failing at yet another diet and having a health scare, I have decided to try and become approved for the lap band procedure. I would go for the RNY gastric bypass except for the fact my fiance and mother would try and stop me from doing it. In 2008 I almost died from a C-section. They don't want me to get another infection or whatever else from an open surgery.I keep looking through all the before and after photos on here. It's just so inspiring to see all these people's lives changed by the same decision I've made. It actually gives me a little hope. I always feel so bad about how big I am and having so many self esteem issues. True, I could have said no to this food or that food. I don't think many people believe in food addictions or whatever, but.....you know I really can't think of an excuse for my eating habits because I truly don't even have a good one lol.
I don't want to worry about my children being ashamed of me. I don't want their friends to tease them, or leave me wondering if they say crap about my weight. I don't want my kids to grow up without their mom if something were to happen to my health. Heart disease, cancer, and diabetes runs in my family. I choose to live a long life without fear.
So anyways, I'll be calling the NC Medicaid line and asking about if they cover it. I'm praying they will. Until I can find a way, I'll be talking to my pcp about putting me on a monitored diet. One way or another I WILL get this weight off. Any advice or support is welcome. Thank you all for reading and good luck in your own pursuits :-).
