Txgal8437
Well let me begin by saying that I was always small throughout high school and even after having three children. When I graduated I weighed 97 lbs. I was very active and continued to be after getting married. AFter my first child, I weighed 107. After having twins, I weighed 117. Then I dont even know what happened. While breastfeeding the twins, I craved peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. I would eat 20 a day. I dont know why. I joined gyms, saw weight doctors, and wrote in journals trying to shame myself into sticking to a diet. I was in an abusive marriage for 27 years during which time I was sent to the hospital on two occasions. {I am since divorced for 10 years and married to a wonderful man who loves me just the way I am at 245 lbs.} So why do I want this surgery so badly. My ex used to tell me that I used to really be something, but now I wasnt shit. I knew that wasnt true, but I was told that so many times that I began to believe it myself. Well no more. I would eat in order to repulse him from sexual advances. I didnt hurt anyone but me. And now......well now my life is just beginning at age 52. I am so in love with a wonderful man. I have such confidence in myself that I have no doubt I can do this. Perhaps you wont understand this, but this is my time. My time to be the person I should have been for so many years. My time to set examples for my children. My time to honor my husband by caring about my health. I am proud of this decision to have lap RNY, and proud to NOW be called a LOSER and agree with it.
