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Well, today was a downer. After vacation to the Twin Cities to visit my brother and sister-in-law, it seems that reality has hit. I have an intestial infection that is serious and I have to take pills that taste like crap and are hard to swallow. Not only that but I am used to dry heaving now and that is even worse. I hate this feeling of having an upset stomach all the time and not sure what to eat. I even tried tomato soup this morning and that didn't work at all. One bite and I was dry heaving. Smells are also awful right now. I cannot stand the smell of my own odors in the restroom let alone anyone elses and with the infection I stink no matter what I do. Even passing gas is enough to make me dry heave. Fun times right now. I feel like it is time for me to throw in the towel and forget it. I am so over this struggle and it is only three weeks into it. I hate the way I feel right now and I cannot even take my depression meds because I cannot keep anything down. LIke I said, fun time at this house.

The visit went well and was as expected. Long enough but not too long. The ride was torture as it was so long but overall it went well.

Yesterday was the 4th of July and we had a family get-together. It was tough with all the traditional yummy foods and I got to eat Jell-o and water! It was not as hard as I thought but I am having psychological cravings for something crunchy and with texture.

Before the surgery we kept it quiet for fear of others reactions and negative comments. It felt so good yesterday to talk to others about the surgery and how I am feeling. They were so supportive and excited for me to become smaller and have less back pain. It was reassuring. Everyone either asked to eat in front of me or apologized when they didn't know for eating. I'm OK with it as my parents eat "normal" food in front of me so it is normal. I enjoy the smells but the kicker was the grilled corn. Hopefully next year I can partake in the summer specialty.

I'm a little concerned that I don't feel so negative or put-out by other eating foods I cannot but it was so hot yesterday that I really didn't mind as I didn't feel like eating anyway. I packed a cooler full of items I could eat yet I only drank fluids as I was so hot and didn't want to get dehydrated.

I think I over-did the time up and about yesterday as I am more sore today than i have been in a few days.

It is wonderful to have an outlet for my frustrations and concerns where only others with similar issues can relate.

Finally feeling up to looking into getting some support and seeing how others have dealt with this surgery, here goes my personal account of my new life. I am seven days old (post-op) today and still feeling a bit sore and discouraged as I am not able to totally follow the diet prescribed. I have some major back issues that are a factor right now and it is driving me nuts. I am used to laying down and resting a couple time a day but the new eating schedule does not allow for that. I am feeling a bit like a failure right now because I have not been able to hack what I need to do at this time. I am not looking for pity or anything but I do hope that in using this site I can see how others have dealt with these issues and survived. I am starting to have less pain now in my stomach but my back and tush are hurting like all get out. I've been able to maneuver around the house pretty well and have even taken short walks outside. I'm afraid of becoming dehydrated because it is so warm outside that I find hard to find time to each any of the "solid" foods that I'm allowed at this point.